In times like this....

I've juz realised dat other than myself, there is no one else.

Looking at my 'empty' surroundings, I finally felt the spasms of loneliness whole heartedly. It is cold. It is dark. As I turn around scouting for companions, none came into view. Not a friend. Not even family.

I feel like disappearing. I feel like leaving. I feel like nothing is worthy anymore. Not even my very own self.

I am truly invisible.

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Malaysia International Fashion Awards 2006

shud i say dat i was plain lucky? or shud i say dat the opportunity juz came upon me? *shrugs* guess it's a little of both.

yah, i was there late last nite. at the MIFA 2006 AFter Party. in connection with my firm, we were there to tabulate the votes the judges gave to the upcoming new designers. a rare opportunity i wud say. as auditors, we get to meet the judges face to face ( whom are all big shots in the fashion industry ), get good seats, access to the back stage and the chance to stride on the runway. now wat do u say about dat? all for...FREE!

i was not expecting something grand. until i arrived at Hall 1 of KL Convention Centre did i realised dat i was so wrong. the place was full with big names in the Malaysian fashion industry as well as their counterparts in other countries. also present were celebreties, local hosts, royalties and ministers. no joke. we looked like exactly nobody there.

if ur familiar with our local names, lemme juz bring u thru some of the ppl dat i recognised from last nite:
Dato' Bernard Chandran and wife, Datin Mary Lourdes; Dato' Professor Jimmy Choo; Serena C from Hitz.tv; Pop singer Camelia ( who is also the face of this year's MIFW ); designer of the year, Melinda Looi; Winnie Loo from A Cut Above; designer Tom Abang Saufi; style editor of The Edge, Cheryl Ambrose; previous newscaster Mahathir Lokman; president of MIFA, Nancy Yeoh.

among the high profiled ppl is a princess from Pahang, a minister from the tourism industry, some producer from Sex and the City... and a whole lots more of other fashion designers dat i haf no idea who. pardon me la, i was not very into the fashion industry oni. dat is, until last nite. haha!

and fashion comes along with some wierd ppl as well. u know those things they say about designers, well, they are true. some of them are real sissies. men with a feminine side. i dunno who they are but they juz gimme the creeps. geli. there was one in a bright pink shirt and walked like a lady. another in a colourful glittery suit and carried a furry bull dog hand bag. * eeeeeww* another in a leaopard print coat with huge shades. dah la, it was dark in there. an old lady with kedut skin wearing skin tight outfit and heavy make up and fake blond hair. *omg* i stood as far away from her as possible. no way im gonna get photographed anywer near her. no way!trying to grab the limelight i suppose. wrong tactic la.

we managed to snapped some pics ( they will be uploaded in frenster once i've compiled them all ), watched the fashion runway from the new designer and got highed a little...hehe. too many good looking guys around. wahahaha! anyway, the Mot Promising Designer went to a chap from Raffles Institute of Design. he had all his frens cheering for him. how nice! and he's very young. so talented at a such a young age. * thumbs up*

the whole thing ended at around 1.30 am. i guess i wont regret turning up. an eye opener. socialites party. it was an experience to be a part of it. even if it's juz for once.

and yah, did i mention Melinda Looi is a nice person? well, she is. humble and sweet. petite and friendly. got to meet her face to face... :) and i need to compliment Serena C for her hosting skills. she surely is good at it. yea.

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The fickle minded me

It was a real lousy day. Well, I made it lousy.

I din noe wat I was doing. I agreed to 2 different parties that I'll turn up to 2 entirely different events. Both happening this weekend. Shit. Now that I've confirmed on both sides, I need to back out on one. And the one dat I backed out was the one that I first agreed. Guilt struck. I just gaf the first party an irresponsible impression. Someone who doesn't keep her word. Someone who's not serious in her decisions.

I juz din noe wat got into me. Honestly, I was interested in both of the events. They gif 2 different types of experiences. And I knew I cud only choose one. Wat made me say 'yes' to the second one anyway? I've landed myself in trouble. And more trouble for the first party as arrangements have been made. Worst, both parties have actually made the necessary arrangements for my participation. Great. Since when did I became so damn selfish? To juz only think about myself? And wat the hell got into me today?

I hate myself.

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Don't mess with us!

Sis and I have this common liking when we dine at this particular cafe at leisure mall. I shall leave it to u all to guess the cafe dat I'm talking about. But each time we were there, the same frustrations occured and both sis and I have the same enjoyment of throwing our temper at the waiter and waitresses there.Hah!

Just like dinner a few hrs ago. The place was full and the only table available was one rite in front of the main entrance. I dun really like the idea to eat while having ppl looking at ur dishes. Especially when there's a queue. Mum spotted an empty table in the middle and requested for a change. The waitress was trying to save all the 'mafanness' of switching and said dat every table is the same. It doesnt matter wer ur seated at. Woa...mistake! Sis got heated up and replied back, " But I dun like seating at the entrance". Mum was gonna gif in when i got up, told the waitress in the face " Neither do I," and stormed rite to the empty table, without waiting for her to gif a response. Haha. Such enjoyment. She terpaksa gif in to us la. ;p

Service was not very satisfactory either. Not dat they were understaffed or anything like dat. There were quite a number of waiters and waitresses around. But all of them seemed to be crowding around the counter with their backs towards the tables. Wat the heck! U were employed just to hang around izzit? As if they dun care when a customer calls for them. Ish! Feel like throwing a stone at them to get their attention. A few stones wud do a better job.

Then there was the menu. I ordered a particular waffle and the guy said it was not available for the day. Okay. Fine. I then pointed to a sandwich and he said it was not available too. Okay. I pointed to another dish and asked, "Then is THIS available?". Guess wat, he said NO as well. Crap! My turn to heat up. I closed the menu, turned to him and asked, "So wat is AVAILABLE?" with a real frustrated look. He suggested a few which i dun feel like eating. Wat kind of place is this? Ur operating a cafe and yet u tell ur customers dat most of the dishes on the menu are not available. Then wat to eat?

They took like forever to serve as well. Sis reminded them a couple of times. They said " Okay. Okay. Coming." and then forgot all about it. Sis was on the verge of 'slapping' them when her dish finally came. And it looked as if it was not cooked well enuf. If there was a suggestion box there, I wud haf criticised them cukup cukup.Is this how u treat ur customers?

Not only is the service damn bad, the place is not very hygenic either. Halfway thru the meal, we actually saw a huge rat jumping down the stairs (yeah, its a 2 level kind of place). I wud haf forgiven them if i was at a mamak or something like dat. But this is a cafe. At leisure mall man! No comments anymore. The rat was rather cute tho.

Sis and I made it a point to gif them a piece of our minds every time we go there. Yea, we wud be going back coz mum likes it there. Dunno why. Hehe. To remind them of their lousiness. ;p

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Little Taiwan @ SS15

there was a gathering last nite. not much of a gathering oso la anyway. i see u all almost every other week. maybe it's different this week coz winnie's there. but still i was not in the mood to head all the way up to SS15. sorry girl if i made u think i had not wanted to meet up wif u.

but i went up too anyway. yah, the soft hearted me. still, i dun get the logic of why i need to be there. from all the looks of it, it really doesnt matter if i turn up or not. but dia went to all the trouble to get me out of the house, so i went la.

Little Taiwan's situated rite opposite Taylor's College. On the same row as Asia Cafe. If anyone wants to try dat place out, rmbr to head upstairs to wer all the couches are. Real comfy and they do really gif u a sense of relaxation. The stereo was playing some really nice symphonies. Especially "we are the world" by michael jackson. hehe. segarians shud noe wat this song meant rite. there, for the special kids programme we had back then. it juz brought me back there for a while. The inter deco was 'cun' too. they haf all these neon lightings on the walls. some white and violet transparent curtains at the washrooms. if i had my room decorated like dat... ;p

food and drinks was on the average side. pricing was fair too..usual cafe prices. i was more into their atmosphere la. we switched over to sit on the couches and pillows later throughout the nite. it was too comfy dat i slept a while la...hahahha. sakai rite? went out to sleep.

but it was new place dat i got to check out. we crapped a while. caught up on things. fooled around. and then left. i still haf no idea why was i there.

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REC Industrial Update/Group Dinner

It's an annual thingy. REC wud haf this training/industry updates ( as they call it ) once a year to brief staffs on the new issues in the auditing line. This year's limelight was on the transition from MASB to FRSs in regards to public listed companies.

We had ours this year at University Malaya. We booked Rumah University for the whole day. Around 140 ppl turned up. From partners to managers to seniors to juniors. UM sure is huge. And some of their buildings still have this British structures in them. Real 'cun'. There was some exams going on campus, so, we saw students doing last minute cramming on the sidewalks and on the steps. Hah! I'm thru with all those. :p

Rumah University is an "antique" double storey house. Dat's why it's called a rumah. We had our trainings and discussions in this some sort of conference room on the first floor. It was comfy altho a little crammed for the so many of us. To be frank, it was bored la. The managers were doing all the talking and we were doing all the listening. Some fell asleep and some 'entertained' themselves. Me and sharon were juz plain talking...and gossipping. Haha!

We had games to lightened up at the end of the day. We were divided into groups. The task was to use 2 newspapers and 5 A4 papers to increase the height of our group leaders in 15 minutes. Winners will be based on creativity, durability and obviously height. Winners will each get a prize while the losers will need to perform at the group dinner later on. It was fun. And it was a rush. In the end, my group didn't win...and we didn't lose either.

Ooo...finally it was time to head to the long awaited group dinner at Tropicana Golf & Country Resort. Dat's wer wealthy ppl stay. And i can say, they are truly very very wealthy! The whole parking area was filled with RECians' vehicles. One whole gang masuk macam itu. Cool. Dinner was buffet styled. But not much of varieties. Who cares! We enjoyed the performances more. I didn't stop laughing the entire nite. The performances they laid out was damn hilarious. We had really sporting managers and staffs. And the performance master did his job well. There was a fashion show. Followed by a real silly Q & A session. Then the managers were forced to sing. There were lucky draws and exchange of gifts for everyone. I got this really cute doggie. It's sitting in my car rite now. The whole thing ended at around 10.30. We stayed on till like 11 for some group and personal photograph sessions.

No. It was not over yet. Belum mau balik lagi. The few of us went to Baywatch to yam cha. It's some wer in Tropicana oso la. We had wanted to go since the last few weeks. My this colleague gaf in and finally brought us there. The environment is sort of cool. They haf an aquarium of sharks at the entrance. It's more of a pub la. But since it was a Thursday nite, it was quite empty. We were the only big group seated there. Making a whole lot of noise with all the laughters and b/g relationships. Plus a 'few' going to be drunk ppl talking nonsense. First time out for a nite drink with my colleagues. A whole different experience. We shall hang out more often in the coming days. ;)

The supposedly 15 minutes drink lasted to an hr and a half. Haha. Reached home around 1 in the morning. Phew! Was out the entire day. Woke up early for work the next morning. Arghh!

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Last chances

time and time again they were unspokenly given,
as expected, they were not taken,
somehow, a little hope still lay hidden,
but after so long, even dat is broken,
as the heart saddens,
the mind made a hesitant decision,
the finale to this piece has finally been chosen,
pray dat there are no regrets for this action.

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Sudden ill

caught me unexpectedly. didnt know this was coming. there were no symptons wat so eva.

all i did was went for lunch 2 days ago, went back to my work place still feeling fine, until 2 hrs later when my tummy started to churn and the next thing i knew i was running to the washroom to haf my lunch all thrown out. twice. gosh! my tummy was still churning by the time i left for home. lost all mood to work for dat last few hrs. felt really sick.

reached home with a spinning head and crashed immediately. coz i was not seeing things clearly anymore. needed to lie down badly. woke up few hrs later to throw up again. mum noticed and whisked me off to the hospital right away. clinics were all closed by dat time. and the doctor took like forever to attend to me. sigh! in the end, i was diaognised with indigestion and high fever. went home to vomit another time. everything i ate, came back out in a matter of minutes. fine. so i juz popped in the pills and went to bed.

obviously not going to work the next day in this condition, i slept all throughout the day. waking up only to take medicines and to answer calls. i dunno wat's with my acquaintances, but my cell never stopped vibrating yesterday. calls and messages came from colleagues (thanx for all the concerns), frens and even ex colleagues. arghhhh!!! how come when i want my phone to ring, it doesnt? and on my sick day, it didnt stopped ringing! in my stage of drowsiness, i wonder if i sent the rite message back to the rite people. hehe.

felt alot better when i woke up last nite. no more throwing up. fever subsided. today still abit blur la. too much of sleep. but still managed to head out to a colleague's gathering. hehe. i juz cant sit still. lolz.

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Lion jumped

Lion. aunt's pet dog. age 100 years (well, as equivalent to a human's life). jumped from the 1st floor balcony. landed with a thud on the front porch. guests gaped. aunt shocked. lion barked non stop. blood trickling down its head. its whole body shaking. uncle carried it into the kitchen. still barking. woundn't stay still. aunt got worried. it was sent to the vet. and it didnt come back.

no la. not dead. juz need to stay at the vet's for further examination.

wat on earth la? ever heard a dog jumped? not fell u noe. Jumped! lion muz be interested in joining us below. cant wait to take the stairs i presume. it was juz a few of us barbequing anyway...yah, bbq again. i muz say, mates, we did a better job 2 weeks ago. everything turned black this time. hahaha.

poor lion. aunt's fav.

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Complimented

a lot of sweet talkers in office lately. or they memang pun liddat. oni dat my realisation came abit later. hahaha. both guys n girls.

was absent from office for a few weeks. got back in oni this week. with a new hairdo. *hint*
so now u noe wat did i get complimented about. lolz.

my spirits were lifted to the clouds. yeah!

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