Broken heels

I broke 3 pairs of my heels in juz the span of 1 week. How's dat? The latest being today, wer I walked bare footed all around the client's premise. For the fun of it. My colleagues went, "Again!?" and couldnt stopped laughing. Coz the same incident happened last week wer one of my fav black heels gave way when I accidently stepped into a crack on the road. I 'limped' all the way back to the office.

There were no cracks today. Juz dat the floor was slippery and I was hopping. So there it went. Tercabut halfway. Y was I hopping? Coz I felt like doing it. Real padan muka. Again I 'limped' back to my seat. Until I got fed up of limping around and dumped the shoes aside. I had my stockings on, so I wasnt worried of dirtying my feet. I hopped more freely after dat. Lolz. I never learn from my lessons. :p

Either I'm juz to darn rough or shoes these days are made from really poor qualities. Either way, I need new shoes. Time for another round of shopping.

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You go girl !

Pinkie joined the team today. Only for a few days I guess. But it doesnt matter. It was good to have her around. It's good to see her. She has this thing that makes ppl feel comfortable around her. Just a flair within her u noe. Or maybe it's juz the way she carries herself. In a sensible way. :p

Anyway, we gossipped. Worked. Played. Worked. Joked. Worked. Laughed. Worked. Teased. Worked. In the absence of seniors la, of coz! Haha! As usual la. Playful minds. The job dun seem dat tensed with her presence. Coz she can real crap like hell. We need more ppl like her. No. I need to hang around more with ppl like her.

At least she got my mind off unwanted thoughts. Unwanted thoughts dat have been 'killing' me. Arghhh! I listen to her though. Out of my consciousnes. :p

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A crap world

I got home after work and realised that my world is a totally crap one. Everything in it. My family took no notice. My friends dun give a damn. Ppl all around me are neglective of my feelings and my existence. I felt emotionally unloved and uncared for. I'm left alone. As the way it has alwiz been. No one to ask how was I doing. No one bothered to know. Am I to gain all the emotional support I need to carry on? Is this how things shud be? Is this how I shud let it be? I relied on my family. They dun want me to. I turned to friends. They, too, pushed me away. This heart has been broken for far too many times. How long more can it withstand?


Tak akan mungkin kita bertahan,
Hidup dalam bersendirian,
Saat hilang arah tujuan,
Kemana berjalan?

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It's a girl!

It's a girl! It's a girl for cousin Shai. Yea. Juz yesterday afternoon. Her first new born. Another addition to the family.

She's so tiny. So lovely. And so naughty. Playing with dribbles while sleeping. Hehe. Daddy and mummy doting all over her. So sweet.

But no name for her yet tho. Coz as with religious belief, u need to calculate the date and time of birth, as well as the alignment of the stars and moon to come up with a few numbers. And then only u name the child according to those numbers. But of coz, not u and I will do the calculations la. A priest will do the honour. Oh, boy! Wanna see the outcome of those numbers. Lolz.

So, here comes a baby. I'm an aunt again. Baby's gonna call me...erm.. *shrugs*. Rather confusing. I dunno wat's baby gonna call me. "ah yi" ? or "jie jie" ? or by name? something like "hey, fui!"...hahaha...

I wanna play with the baby! So adorable!

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Fantasy

To escape reality,
I hide in fantasy's sanctuary,
Making up things dat made me happy,
I took refuge in there for far too long,
I began to bring them out to life,
And when I realised dat they wont happen,
I dashed back to my shell,
That shielded me from the world.

Out of the shell,
I fall.

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A little let out...

The peak has started. The rush is on. The stress is mounting. The tension is moving fast. Time is getting out of hand. Start early. End late. Or maybe it wont even end.

Yea. Horrible. But expected. It wont be that worst off if u work with ppl that u click with. What happens when the whole team u work with are wierd ppl with no sense of life? They come in, get engaged in work, and never leave the chair except to go see the client.

They dun eat. They dun feel tired. They seldom talk. They dun joke around. They dun even take a 5 minutes break to clear the head. And they are planning to work on the weekends too. Wat the hell? Wer are all their social lives? Dun they need to see their families? Dun they at least need to get away from work for a few hours to come back more energized later? Total crap. And I need to see them for the next few months. Totally no fun. Dah la the job serves no purpose and there's no passion for it...the ppl involved pulak all dunno when's the time to let loose a little.

I'll be nuts soon. I honestly dun mind all the challenges and the workloads, but please, not with ppl dat has WORK in their minds only. Life is dead. Wer are all the excitements? I go to the same place everyday. I'd be stuck with some unsolvable issues everyday. I get home late everyday. Coz senior wants to do so. Wat the hell can I say? I din get to talk to my family much. I've sort of got out-of-coverage with my mates. There are lots of things dat I wanna let out. I cant get online there. Unbearable! I cudnt find a single soul to talk some sense into me. To have someone to wash my brain a little. To have someone tell me dat I'd be fine. That I can handle the tough seasaon.

I'm breaking down soon. Someone please hear me. Wer's the open window?

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Chad Michael Murray

Cool? I say, very cool! As a loyal fan of One Tree Hill, I've been mesmerised by his boyish charms. Hehe. Who wudnt? Tall. Well built. Killer smile. Top basketball player. Moderately stylish. Emotional. Perfect guy. Juz so in the series la. Dat's why I'm stuck to it. As with teen days,

"Oh my god! He's so hot!"

Allow me to let loose my fantasy, alritez? :p

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In this heart..

My memories keep flashing back. To all the days we spent together.

I miss u all...
I miss the times...

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Touched

Hung out with my usuals today. I mean yesterday. Almost the whole day. For pool and for bowling.

And after dinner, for some reason, I felt touched. I dunno by wat. It was juz a simple dinner. It was like any other usual day. But it juz came all of a sudden. I teared. Embarrasing. Dearies, no need to wait up next time. Juz go. I need time alone at times. Wierd. U guys dun usually do dat.

P/S : Dia, I toast back to u wat u alwiz toast to me ya. I mean we sama-sama wish each other la. Faham-faham la. Do u get wat I'm trying to say?

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Happy 2007!

Yes. It was indeed a happy start for 2007. A simple yet happy one.

The eve, meaning last nite, was spent at a fren's place. Had pot luck with my 'family'. No. No countdowns or anything fancy wat so ever. We juz wanna keep things quiet and be together. We made our own food, brought them far away in 4 cars, gathered around the lawn, gossiped and chatted while we feasted on them. Totally syok!

It was juz a simple gathering. Sat together. Talked about stuffs. Brought up some past. Bullied some ppl. And rekindled our childhood games. Haha! Yea. We turned back time to 10 years ago and played this catching game at the nearby park. There. The one wer one person will be the catcher to catch the rest running along the yellow lines of the badmintion court? Sakai. Sepuluh lebih orang berumur 20 tahun lebih lari pusing-pusing kat badminton court. Orang pass by pun stopped to look and laughed. By the end of it, we were laughing, we were sweating, we were panting and we really had a wonderful time.

Come 12 o'clock and it's....countdown! We counted down to the new year on the streets. U noe, jalan raya?Watched fireworks and sprayed! Semua orang kena this time. We became one bunch of very colourful ppl! Sprayed dy then kena sapu the jalan pulak. Takut ppl come saman wor. First time. First time I need to sweep the jalan after dirty-ing it up. Real siao. Never haf I done anything like it before. Luckily no other ppl was around. Lolz.

Then it's back to the usuals la. Gamble. Black jack. How can we leave dat out rite? With the trusty good ol' companion...liquor. Ppl got drunk. Ppl turned red. Ppl got high-ed. Ppl won. Ppl lost. All in all, it was another nite to remember. One dat marks the dawn of another new year. The pranks. The teasings. The blessings. The hugs. The friendship.

Another year has gone by. It juz flown thru. I still can remember clearly wat I did and wer I was exactly a year ago today. So much has happened. So much has changed. But haf I? :p

Thank u to all who walked thru my door the past year. Alot has left foot prints all over. Deep deep ones. Those dat cudnt be erased. Hehe! Thank you. No matter who u all are.

Have a wonderful and blessed 2007.

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