BBQ nite

triple celebrations last nite. 3 birthday babies. van, rach and dia. and it was raya eve.

the whole gang was there. everyone turned up. at van's place. since her family was not in, we totally made ourselves at home. making a whole lot of noise. a party wont be a party without some loud ppl.

highlights of the nite:

• late ppl making 'big' entrances
• guys barbequeing food the wrong way ( ALL of them made the same mistake...guys! )
• using the charcoal 'scissors' to pick food (and ate it anyway..)
• home made curry fish balls. nope. curry chicken balls.
• 2 individuals kept whispering among themselves. alone. a guy and a girl.
• 2 couples forced to french kiss. sportingly enuf, they did!
• guys syoked sendiri by forming into a circle with a lighted candle in the middle and sang a birthday song to celebrate the upcoming birthday of another guy fren.
• a usually noisy person suddenly turned quiet the whole nite. prompting questions from everyone. but no one dared to ask.
• girls cleaned up in the kitchen while guys messed around. kacau!
• 13 of us cramped around a small table to settle debts. wallets out. calculators out. bbq costs settled. cake settled. gifts settled. messy. but all settled.
• watched fireworks display at 12. raya! totally awesome. but something was missing. or rather someone.
• the end. everyone else left with company. i left alone. *sniff*

been doing a lot of thinking. i've paid too much attention on them the past year. they were my only focus. it's becoz i was happy when im around them. i got hurt when i failed to get back the attention i poured out. i neglected other ppl dat cared too. until when long lost frens started to drop me messages only did i realised dat they are not the only ones. i still have others. how silly it is of me.

i tried a different way to handle my feelings. to forgive and forget. to not take things too seriously. to be myself. to not care so much anymore. to be a little ignorant. to adopt " wat goes around comes around".

keep my mind occupied. keep my life occupied. i guess i'll feel better dat way.

and girls,

happy belated birthday. happy birthday. happy birthday in advance.