Christmas : Part II

Merry Christmas!

This year's eve was spent with my irreplaceable 'family'...as expected. Coz they are the ones dat will come up with numerous activities to celebrate wat ever is there to celebrate. We were at pyramid's redbox. Let's see, all nine of us cramped into one small little room. Obviously all other rooms were fully booked. There wasnt really enuf space to sit, let alone stand. But still, we kept on singing. Well, actually it was them who kept on singing. I din really chose any songs this round. They seemed to be very into their own choices, I din wanna break the mood. As long as they are happy, I'm cool. The only irritating thing was dat the waiter kept knocking in. Interupting a few of the songs. Ish! Juz buzz off next time. And leave us alone.

We sang thru past midnite. So, dat means, we missed the countdown. We missed the screamings. We missed the fireworks. And we certainly missed the sprays and foams. Heehehe! But we exchanged hugs in our small cosy room. With all our xmas hats. Some with lights blinking even. Cool. And with my ah lui back from far. Knew u wud definitely show up la. So it was not dat surprising. It will be surprising if u DUN show up.

All in all, it ended too soon I wud say. Well, as usual, happy times fly past. By the time we stepped out onto the streets, sprays were every wer. Kenal, tak kenal, also spray dulu la. We were ducking here and there. Hiding behind the guys. Dat's why tak kena so much. Lolz! But my pity goes to the expensive cars by the streets. Those jockey-ed parked ones. Faham-faham la. Serious car wash needed. :p

While heading towards my car, I hung on to pa's arms. Pa and his crazy antics. It felt good actually. In that few minutes or so, I got a sense of protection. Like I'm pa's little girl. No worries about wat's lurking in the dark. Pa's around. But the feeling of hanging on to a friend and hanging on to someone truly yours is entirely different. A friend is still a friend. No matter how long u hang on to. I still went home alone. It didnt change dat one fact for once. I guess I will only get to experience true care and protection until I find my 'one'. As I said, my knight in shining armour. I can keep on fantasizing for the moment. Dun worry pa, I wont be fantasizing about u la. And thanx for the escort.

Anyway, I din really head home after dat. My foot on the accelerator actually took me for a spin down town. I took the other longer route home. I was in no mood to go home. So I went to check out the decorations in town. Then as loads of thoughts filled my head, I stopped by the highway. I knew I was mad. Me. Alone. In a car. Past midnite. On the highway. But I didnt care. I sat with my eyes closed for like 15 mins. To clear the nite's memories from my head. I sometimes fear dat I wont be able to hang out with u all. Either dat I'd be busy, or dat guys wont call, or dat I'll be left out, or dat I simply dun wanna head up. So, I'd try not to think of u guys too often. To keep my options open and to occupy myself with some other things. Partly goes to the fear of losing wat I actually have rite now. I hate the idea of treasuring somethings and then to have them broken all in one shot. I cant take dat. No.

So I took a longer time to reach home. Apologies to my folks for having to worry a few more minutes and for having to wait up for me. Even then, I cant sleep. Dat explains this entry.


Dear Santa,
Obviously u didnt hear me this year...

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Wer have I been?

As the year draws to a close, tot I'd put down something for me to look back on when I head on in life. These are shots throughout the 6 mths in my new firm. Enjoy!



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Christmas

It's the same kind of songs each year. But it brings a different type of feeling each time. I forgot since how long ago dat my every xmas has been spent with frens. U noe, youngsters, it'll be odd to juz stay at home. We need to go some wer or do something to celebrate the season. Wierd. I dun actually celebrate xmas. But there seems to be a need to. U juz got to, u noe? Whether u are a Christian or not.

I remembered those first few years was with dear segarians. Some one will definitely have a xmas open house and there we go. One whole bunch of us making noise. Or it wud be a countdown some wer or a more laid back mamak session watching fireworks. It was cool and I felt warmth. I was with ppl dat I treasure. Ppl dat has been there for a big portion of my life. And I loved every moment of it. Wat else more cud I asked for?

But as segarians drifted, I was kinda swept to another group. One dat came into my life juz a mere 2 yrs back. It was during xmas. At a high chilling place, our friendship bloomed. From acquiantances, we turned to really close close frens. Frens dat u cud actually pour ur heart out to. We are more like a family now. Xmas marks a different date as well. It's our friendship anniversary. Since we've been spending a straight 2 years together. This will be our third. And I'm anticipating to seeing u all again this time around. Yeah!

I especially miss everyone of u during xmas. Each and every one dat I know. Images after images of the past appear. Things we did. Things we said. Things we played. Things we laughed at. Everything!

Segarians will alwiz be close to my heart. No matter wer u guys are now. No matter wat have u all become. U all will still be those dat I knew. My dear childhood frenz. I love u all for who u all are.

Got a xmas card from lin jie today. Boy, was it full of words. Cheung hei betul. It made me laughed. It touched me. And for dat few minutes or so, yeah, I missed u. I missed u all....my one and only 'family'...Irreplaceable..


Dear Santa,
Can you hear me? Underneath my xmas tree, all I want is one thing...
I'll be waiting here...Dat's my only wish this year...

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Fortune teller : Part II

Right. Had not wanted to go back. But went back anyway. This time with a bunch of frens. Waited for quite some time again. Mr fortune teller is a real busy man. As usual, chinese aunties surrounded him. They do take a real long time.

Finally, our turn. If u read my previous entry on the same topic, u wud've known wat he said about my future. Well, this time, it's about the same thing too. Not much have changed. Obviously he was trying to prove dat the bracelet he sold me was doing some good. Dat it actually changed my life for the better. Juz a little better. Not perfect yet. There are still some things dat needed to be improved on. Or I'll surely end up in misery. Therefore, he sold me another one. In pale blue or is it pale silver..with stripes all around. This one is supposedly to improve on relationships and marriage. Yea rite, we shall see.

During dinner at Leo's later dat evening, another fren noticed the new peripherals we bought. In the middle of the discussion on the matter, he asked a real interesting question : why do we need to believe in stuffs like this? He caught me dumb founded. He was rite. And I tot, "do I really believe in wat mr fortune teller has to say?" Coz, all he pointed out was stuffs that will happen in the next 10 yrs or so. The period of time wer no one is certain of wat will come to happen. How sure can he be? I wud be foolish if I listened to everything he said, rite? After all, I didnt grow up believing in feng shuis or gods or past lives etc etc. Yeap, I'm a free thinker. Still, at the moment. So, I'm sceptical.

I juz listened. Listen to wat mr fortune teller has to say. Not trully believing them. Ya wat. He said my life in the future has improved since the last time I visited him. Dat's the future. I dun even noe wat will happen 10 minutes later. Let alone 10 years later. I live in the now. And as for the bracelet I bought, juz for fun? Or juz out of curiosity? Lemme prove if they work. If they dun, they'll juz add up to my accessories. Like I really care. I dun seem to care about anything lately. Maybe he did, after all, planted some hope?

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A week of fun

*Group mates*

Escaped from work. Met colleagues from other departments. Mingled with them. And realised dat they are all wacky as well. Had tea breaks twice a day. Well fed. Did presentations. Answered questions. Got involved in role plays. Brainstormed. Doodled on my notes. Doodled on ppl's notes. Made origamies. Dreamt a little. Whispered with my group mates. Teased around. Disturbed other ppl. Got restless. And left early almost everyday.

Yeah! Trainings. Dat's why ppl love them so much. U get to haf fun. Well, sometimes make fun of other ppl. U get to eat. U get to pick up new knowledge. U get to be close to colleagues u never knew existed. And most importantly, u get to be away from work! Haha. No one to instruct u around. No fussy clients to attend to. No paperworks to settle.

But it kinda ended too soon. Got to get back to reality next week onwards. It had been a total blast. And I seriously enjoyed every moment of it. *thunbs up*

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Annual Dinner & Dance

Took place last Friday nite. At the Shangri-la KL. We were late ( dat wud be me n my twin). It was raining real heavily. There was a massive jam. U noe KL area. I was dead hungry. And we were anxious.

Like everyone else, we arrived later than the 7.30 scheduled start time. Since when were M'sians punctual anyway. The decos, the stage setting, the menus and even the cocktails served were red in colour. In line with the "Red Hot Nite" theme. And no. I was not dressed in red. Had wanted to, but didnt in the end. Not practical buying a bright red dress. Wer else to wear it to? Maroon's close enuf. Not all were there in red. Mostly were not. Those actually dressed up to the theme were eyeing for the best dressed prize.

Got a table quite up front. 2 tables actually. Huge gang. Dinner started off with some hot and sexy dancing from some performers. Unexpected. Some speeches from chairmans which no one listened to. Then the joker emcee came on. He made us laughed all the way thru dinner with his crazy antics and silly games. Plus a chicken dance dat was supposedly to warm us up for the partying after dinner. I guess ppl with the name Marcus do haf this same thing in common. Lolz. Unfortunately, of all the 100 plus lucky draws, I didnt even kena one. Fine!

Didnt ate much. Coz was busy mingling and snapping pics. No way I was gonna let all the glitters and sparkles fade away without keeping a memory of them. But as it with digital cams, the flash modes werent dat nice looking, coz it was too 'flashy', and the nite modes were all blur due to shaky hands. So, it was quite a waste. Pics posted on frenster were the best ones I've selected, wer faces were actually quite visible la. The rest were arghhh! It was either I looked bad in them or u cant even see my face.

The only nice food to eat at dinner was actually the dessert-cheese cake with strawberry toppings. Yumm! Dinner ended at around 12.15. Then while they turn the scene to the dance floor, we actually snapped more pics out at the lobby. But still, no differences. All blurred as well. Went in to party at around 1. Not very fun coz not many were dancing. And not-so-very-nice songs were playing. Danced anyway. Till my feet hurt due to the high heels. There were free flow of beers. And ppl went drinking non-stop. Then in the end, complained of dizziness, cannot stand still, takut road block etc etc.

All in all, left at around 3.45 am. Reached home 4 something. And dropped on the bed around 5 something after cleaning up. Woke up late in the afternoon the next day. But still felt dizzy, so went to bed real early dat nite. One hell of a partying!

Annual D & D rocked!

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Homeward Bound : The Incredible Journey

It's the Disney classic filmed in 1993. I'm not sure if anyone ever heard of this movie, let alone seen it. Since it was like more than a decade ago. Anyway, I was flicking with the TV stations this afternoon and 'stumbled' upon this movie. Yep. On Disney channel, obviously.

It has been so long since I watched this. And I happen to love it. So, I stayed glued to the TV set. No disturbances tolerated! That explains how much I'm into this one.

Basically, it's about 3 pets. 2 dogs and a cat. Namely Shadow, Chance and Sassy. They were left behind by their owners who went for a vacation. Thinking that their owners were abandoning them, they travelled all over America to be reunited with them. Along the way, there were obstacles. And they gave a true meaning to friendship. Wer friends stood up for each other. There were some funny scenes oso la in between. And yah, it was a happy ending. Pets finally found their owners.

And as with all the other times that I'd watched, my eyes watered at the end. No exceptions. Even after watching it so many times. It was touching. Real touching. Well, at least for me. It is the only movie dat has succesfully made me weep. Ever! There were no others. So far la. Hehehe. And it will forever remain my all time favourite. Yupz. There's this thing with me and cute doggies.

I wud love to own a loyal pet dog someday. Hmmm. Dream on!

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Life's choices

Is everything in life a choice? It dawned upon me when I woke up this morning that it is. I juz realized that, wif the sun's rays shining thru my window, I can actually choose how I want my life to be. Exactly, I'm in total control!

I can choose the type of job that I want. I can choose who to hang out with. I can choose wer to head to during outings. I can choose to pursue another path. I can choose wat I want to do during my free time. I can choose who to call when I'm bored. I can choose to eat wat eva I like. I can choose how to react when ppl put me down. I can choose how to handle sly remarks. I can choose...I can choose...I can choose... All it takes is juz a little courage and the heart to do it.

And even when there are some circumstances that doesnt allow us to do exactly wat we want, when something's not a choice, there's still a choice too...a choice to think positively, a choice to be happy, a choice to be contented and a choice to make the most out of everything. Why is there a need to be sad or to be angry or to be frustrated or to be depressed or even to be stressed? Why do we have to waste so much time and energy on feelings that doesnt bring any good to us? Why did we have to choose to live life miserably when there's so much more to look forward to? and when there's such a wonderful journey up ahead for us to experience? We were so blinded by our misfortunes that we fail to see the dim light rite beside the darkness.

Ya, I know, its easy for me to say. But it's no harm giving it a try either. Some of u might haf differing views on wat I wrote...I may sound self centered, I may even sound like a "cin cai" person...with not much ambitions and decisions...but who cares? I choose to live with wat I have in mind. I choose the way I wanna live. It has definitely made me a more cheerful person. And with an open heart, I began to see things more 'clearly'. If u dont take things into heart so seriously, u will see a better u.

My choice now? To be ME. The one and only.

Juz for a thought, is living a choice as well?

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Steamboat party

It was the most 'fung fu' steamboat I've ever had. It started at 7 and I'm still stuffed rite up to this hour.

There were the usuals for a steamboat, u noe, those fish balls, meat balls, tauhus, veges, crab sticks, meats, sotongs, prawns etc. Then there were also satays, ketupats, mee hoons, mushrooms ( all kinds of them), sausages, dumplings. In between, we had desserts : 2 types of jelies, cakes, fruits, junk foods and loads of ice creams...OOOooo! My little tummy is starting to show dy... How not to when the hostess kept forcing everyone to clear every single plate dat was laid on the table?

It was juz a small gathering (plus a birthday party) with my ex colleagues at my ex senior's place. The turn up was satisfying. Those who have left were all there as well. Juz shows how close we all are. Hahaha! And none of them have actually changed much. All still as nutty as ever. Crapping and laughing. And snapping pics.

Had quite a long chat with my ex seniors. Good to noe dat they are still concerned about me...hehehe! They were all asking how am I doing in my new place and offered some real crappy advises. As usual la. But it was good to see them again. Gosh, I really do miss working with them.

In the end, we had an exhange of name cards session. Lolz! The passing of one card to the other. And, once again, I got complimented on my new hairdo. *Jumps with joy* They say I look different in it. Nvm. As long as ppl say I look GOOD in it. Wahahhaha!

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