Christmas : Part II

Merry Christmas!

This year's eve was spent with my irreplaceable 'family'...as expected. Coz they are the ones dat will come up with numerous activities to celebrate wat ever is there to celebrate. We were at pyramid's redbox. Let's see, all nine of us cramped into one small little room. Obviously all other rooms were fully booked. There wasnt really enuf space to sit, let alone stand. But still, we kept on singing. Well, actually it was them who kept on singing. I din really chose any songs this round. They seemed to be very into their own choices, I din wanna break the mood. As long as they are happy, I'm cool. The only irritating thing was dat the waiter kept knocking in. Interupting a few of the songs. Ish! Juz buzz off next time. And leave us alone.

We sang thru past midnite. So, dat means, we missed the countdown. We missed the screamings. We missed the fireworks. And we certainly missed the sprays and foams. Heehehe! But we exchanged hugs in our small cosy room. With all our xmas hats. Some with lights blinking even. Cool. And with my ah lui back from far. Knew u wud definitely show up la. So it was not dat surprising. It will be surprising if u DUN show up.

All in all, it ended too soon I wud say. Well, as usual, happy times fly past. By the time we stepped out onto the streets, sprays were every wer. Kenal, tak kenal, also spray dulu la. We were ducking here and there. Hiding behind the guys. Dat's why tak kena so much. Lolz! But my pity goes to the expensive cars by the streets. Those jockey-ed parked ones. Faham-faham la. Serious car wash needed. :p

While heading towards my car, I hung on to pa's arms. Pa and his crazy antics. It felt good actually. In that few minutes or so, I got a sense of protection. Like I'm pa's little girl. No worries about wat's lurking in the dark. Pa's around. But the feeling of hanging on to a friend and hanging on to someone truly yours is entirely different. A friend is still a friend. No matter how long u hang on to. I still went home alone. It didnt change dat one fact for once. I guess I will only get to experience true care and protection until I find my 'one'. As I said, my knight in shining armour. I can keep on fantasizing for the moment. Dun worry pa, I wont be fantasizing about u la. And thanx for the escort.

Anyway, I din really head home after dat. My foot on the accelerator actually took me for a spin down town. I took the other longer route home. I was in no mood to go home. So I went to check out the decorations in town. Then as loads of thoughts filled my head, I stopped by the highway. I knew I was mad. Me. Alone. In a car. Past midnite. On the highway. But I didnt care. I sat with my eyes closed for like 15 mins. To clear the nite's memories from my head. I sometimes fear dat I wont be able to hang out with u all. Either dat I'd be busy, or dat guys wont call, or dat I'll be left out, or dat I simply dun wanna head up. So, I'd try not to think of u guys too often. To keep my options open and to occupy myself with some other things. Partly goes to the fear of losing wat I actually have rite now. I hate the idea of treasuring somethings and then to have them broken all in one shot. I cant take dat. No.

So I took a longer time to reach home. Apologies to my folks for having to worry a few more minutes and for having to wait up for me. Even then, I cant sleep. Dat explains this entry.


Dear Santa,
Obviously u didnt hear me this year...

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Wer have I been?

As the year draws to a close, tot I'd put down something for me to look back on when I head on in life. These are shots throughout the 6 mths in my new firm. Enjoy!



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Christmas

It's the same kind of songs each year. But it brings a different type of feeling each time. I forgot since how long ago dat my every xmas has been spent with frens. U noe, youngsters, it'll be odd to juz stay at home. We need to go some wer or do something to celebrate the season. Wierd. I dun actually celebrate xmas. But there seems to be a need to. U juz got to, u noe? Whether u are a Christian or not.

I remembered those first few years was with dear segarians. Some one will definitely have a xmas open house and there we go. One whole bunch of us making noise. Or it wud be a countdown some wer or a more laid back mamak session watching fireworks. It was cool and I felt warmth. I was with ppl dat I treasure. Ppl dat has been there for a big portion of my life. And I loved every moment of it. Wat else more cud I asked for?

But as segarians drifted, I was kinda swept to another group. One dat came into my life juz a mere 2 yrs back. It was during xmas. At a high chilling place, our friendship bloomed. From acquiantances, we turned to really close close frens. Frens dat u cud actually pour ur heart out to. We are more like a family now. Xmas marks a different date as well. It's our friendship anniversary. Since we've been spending a straight 2 years together. This will be our third. And I'm anticipating to seeing u all again this time around. Yeah!

I especially miss everyone of u during xmas. Each and every one dat I know. Images after images of the past appear. Things we did. Things we said. Things we played. Things we laughed at. Everything!

Segarians will alwiz be close to my heart. No matter wer u guys are now. No matter wat have u all become. U all will still be those dat I knew. My dear childhood frenz. I love u all for who u all are.

Got a xmas card from lin jie today. Boy, was it full of words. Cheung hei betul. It made me laughed. It touched me. And for dat few minutes or so, yeah, I missed u. I missed u all....my one and only 'family'...Irreplaceable..


Dear Santa,
Can you hear me? Underneath my xmas tree, all I want is one thing...
I'll be waiting here...Dat's my only wish this year...

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Fortune teller : Part II

Right. Had not wanted to go back. But went back anyway. This time with a bunch of frens. Waited for quite some time again. Mr fortune teller is a real busy man. As usual, chinese aunties surrounded him. They do take a real long time.

Finally, our turn. If u read my previous entry on the same topic, u wud've known wat he said about my future. Well, this time, it's about the same thing too. Not much have changed. Obviously he was trying to prove dat the bracelet he sold me was doing some good. Dat it actually changed my life for the better. Juz a little better. Not perfect yet. There are still some things dat needed to be improved on. Or I'll surely end up in misery. Therefore, he sold me another one. In pale blue or is it pale silver..with stripes all around. This one is supposedly to improve on relationships and marriage. Yea rite, we shall see.

During dinner at Leo's later dat evening, another fren noticed the new peripherals we bought. In the middle of the discussion on the matter, he asked a real interesting question : why do we need to believe in stuffs like this? He caught me dumb founded. He was rite. And I tot, "do I really believe in wat mr fortune teller has to say?" Coz, all he pointed out was stuffs that will happen in the next 10 yrs or so. The period of time wer no one is certain of wat will come to happen. How sure can he be? I wud be foolish if I listened to everything he said, rite? After all, I didnt grow up believing in feng shuis or gods or past lives etc etc. Yeap, I'm a free thinker. Still, at the moment. So, I'm sceptical.

I juz listened. Listen to wat mr fortune teller has to say. Not trully believing them. Ya wat. He said my life in the future has improved since the last time I visited him. Dat's the future. I dun even noe wat will happen 10 minutes later. Let alone 10 years later. I live in the now. And as for the bracelet I bought, juz for fun? Or juz out of curiosity? Lemme prove if they work. If they dun, they'll juz add up to my accessories. Like I really care. I dun seem to care about anything lately. Maybe he did, after all, planted some hope?

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A week of fun

*Group mates*

Escaped from work. Met colleagues from other departments. Mingled with them. And realised dat they are all wacky as well. Had tea breaks twice a day. Well fed. Did presentations. Answered questions. Got involved in role plays. Brainstormed. Doodled on my notes. Doodled on ppl's notes. Made origamies. Dreamt a little. Whispered with my group mates. Teased around. Disturbed other ppl. Got restless. And left early almost everyday.

Yeah! Trainings. Dat's why ppl love them so much. U get to haf fun. Well, sometimes make fun of other ppl. U get to eat. U get to pick up new knowledge. U get to be close to colleagues u never knew existed. And most importantly, u get to be away from work! Haha. No one to instruct u around. No fussy clients to attend to. No paperworks to settle.

But it kinda ended too soon. Got to get back to reality next week onwards. It had been a total blast. And I seriously enjoyed every moment of it. *thunbs up*

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Annual Dinner & Dance

Took place last Friday nite. At the Shangri-la KL. We were late ( dat wud be me n my twin). It was raining real heavily. There was a massive jam. U noe KL area. I was dead hungry. And we were anxious.

Like everyone else, we arrived later than the 7.30 scheduled start time. Since when were M'sians punctual anyway. The decos, the stage setting, the menus and even the cocktails served were red in colour. In line with the "Red Hot Nite" theme. And no. I was not dressed in red. Had wanted to, but didnt in the end. Not practical buying a bright red dress. Wer else to wear it to? Maroon's close enuf. Not all were there in red. Mostly were not. Those actually dressed up to the theme were eyeing for the best dressed prize.

Got a table quite up front. 2 tables actually. Huge gang. Dinner started off with some hot and sexy dancing from some performers. Unexpected. Some speeches from chairmans which no one listened to. Then the joker emcee came on. He made us laughed all the way thru dinner with his crazy antics and silly games. Plus a chicken dance dat was supposedly to warm us up for the partying after dinner. I guess ppl with the name Marcus do haf this same thing in common. Lolz. Unfortunately, of all the 100 plus lucky draws, I didnt even kena one. Fine!

Didnt ate much. Coz was busy mingling and snapping pics. No way I was gonna let all the glitters and sparkles fade away without keeping a memory of them. But as it with digital cams, the flash modes werent dat nice looking, coz it was too 'flashy', and the nite modes were all blur due to shaky hands. So, it was quite a waste. Pics posted on frenster were the best ones I've selected, wer faces were actually quite visible la. The rest were arghhh! It was either I looked bad in them or u cant even see my face.

The only nice food to eat at dinner was actually the dessert-cheese cake with strawberry toppings. Yumm! Dinner ended at around 12.15. Then while they turn the scene to the dance floor, we actually snapped more pics out at the lobby. But still, no differences. All blurred as well. Went in to party at around 1. Not very fun coz not many were dancing. And not-so-very-nice songs were playing. Danced anyway. Till my feet hurt due to the high heels. There were free flow of beers. And ppl went drinking non-stop. Then in the end, complained of dizziness, cannot stand still, takut road block etc etc.

All in all, left at around 3.45 am. Reached home 4 something. And dropped on the bed around 5 something after cleaning up. Woke up late in the afternoon the next day. But still felt dizzy, so went to bed real early dat nite. One hell of a partying!

Annual D & D rocked!

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Homeward Bound : The Incredible Journey

It's the Disney classic filmed in 1993. I'm not sure if anyone ever heard of this movie, let alone seen it. Since it was like more than a decade ago. Anyway, I was flicking with the TV stations this afternoon and 'stumbled' upon this movie. Yep. On Disney channel, obviously.

It has been so long since I watched this. And I happen to love it. So, I stayed glued to the TV set. No disturbances tolerated! That explains how much I'm into this one.

Basically, it's about 3 pets. 2 dogs and a cat. Namely Shadow, Chance and Sassy. They were left behind by their owners who went for a vacation. Thinking that their owners were abandoning them, they travelled all over America to be reunited with them. Along the way, there were obstacles. And they gave a true meaning to friendship. Wer friends stood up for each other. There were some funny scenes oso la in between. And yah, it was a happy ending. Pets finally found their owners.

And as with all the other times that I'd watched, my eyes watered at the end. No exceptions. Even after watching it so many times. It was touching. Real touching. Well, at least for me. It is the only movie dat has succesfully made me weep. Ever! There were no others. So far la. Hehehe. And it will forever remain my all time favourite. Yupz. There's this thing with me and cute doggies.

I wud love to own a loyal pet dog someday. Hmmm. Dream on!

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Life's choices

Is everything in life a choice? It dawned upon me when I woke up this morning that it is. I juz realized that, wif the sun's rays shining thru my window, I can actually choose how I want my life to be. Exactly, I'm in total control!

I can choose the type of job that I want. I can choose who to hang out with. I can choose wer to head to during outings. I can choose to pursue another path. I can choose wat I want to do during my free time. I can choose who to call when I'm bored. I can choose to eat wat eva I like. I can choose how to react when ppl put me down. I can choose how to handle sly remarks. I can choose...I can choose...I can choose... All it takes is juz a little courage and the heart to do it.

And even when there are some circumstances that doesnt allow us to do exactly wat we want, when something's not a choice, there's still a choice too...a choice to think positively, a choice to be happy, a choice to be contented and a choice to make the most out of everything. Why is there a need to be sad or to be angry or to be frustrated or to be depressed or even to be stressed? Why do we have to waste so much time and energy on feelings that doesnt bring any good to us? Why did we have to choose to live life miserably when there's so much more to look forward to? and when there's such a wonderful journey up ahead for us to experience? We were so blinded by our misfortunes that we fail to see the dim light rite beside the darkness.

Ya, I know, its easy for me to say. But it's no harm giving it a try either. Some of u might haf differing views on wat I wrote...I may sound self centered, I may even sound like a "cin cai" person...with not much ambitions and decisions...but who cares? I choose to live with wat I have in mind. I choose the way I wanna live. It has definitely made me a more cheerful person. And with an open heart, I began to see things more 'clearly'. If u dont take things into heart so seriously, u will see a better u.

My choice now? To be ME. The one and only.

Juz for a thought, is living a choice as well?

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Steamboat party

It was the most 'fung fu' steamboat I've ever had. It started at 7 and I'm still stuffed rite up to this hour.

There were the usuals for a steamboat, u noe, those fish balls, meat balls, tauhus, veges, crab sticks, meats, sotongs, prawns etc. Then there were also satays, ketupats, mee hoons, mushrooms ( all kinds of them), sausages, dumplings. In between, we had desserts : 2 types of jelies, cakes, fruits, junk foods and loads of ice creams...OOOooo! My little tummy is starting to show dy... How not to when the hostess kept forcing everyone to clear every single plate dat was laid on the table?

It was juz a small gathering (plus a birthday party) with my ex colleagues at my ex senior's place. The turn up was satisfying. Those who have left were all there as well. Juz shows how close we all are. Hahaha! And none of them have actually changed much. All still as nutty as ever. Crapping and laughing. And snapping pics.

Had quite a long chat with my ex seniors. Good to noe dat they are still concerned about me...hehehe! They were all asking how am I doing in my new place and offered some real crappy advises. As usual la. But it was good to see them again. Gosh, I really do miss working with them.

In the end, we had an exhange of name cards session. Lolz! The passing of one card to the other. And, once again, I got complimented on my new hairdo. *Jumps with joy* They say I look different in it. Nvm. As long as ppl say I look GOOD in it. Wahahhaha!

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In times like this....

I've juz realised dat other than myself, there is no one else.

Looking at my 'empty' surroundings, I finally felt the spasms of loneliness whole heartedly. It is cold. It is dark. As I turn around scouting for companions, none came into view. Not a friend. Not even family.

I feel like disappearing. I feel like leaving. I feel like nothing is worthy anymore. Not even my very own self.

I am truly invisible.

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Malaysia International Fashion Awards 2006

shud i say dat i was plain lucky? or shud i say dat the opportunity juz came upon me? *shrugs* guess it's a little of both.

yah, i was there late last nite. at the MIFA 2006 AFter Party. in connection with my firm, we were there to tabulate the votes the judges gave to the upcoming new designers. a rare opportunity i wud say. as auditors, we get to meet the judges face to face ( whom are all big shots in the fashion industry ), get good seats, access to the back stage and the chance to stride on the runway. now wat do u say about dat? all for...FREE!

i was not expecting something grand. until i arrived at Hall 1 of KL Convention Centre did i realised dat i was so wrong. the place was full with big names in the Malaysian fashion industry as well as their counterparts in other countries. also present were celebreties, local hosts, royalties and ministers. no joke. we looked like exactly nobody there.

if ur familiar with our local names, lemme juz bring u thru some of the ppl dat i recognised from last nite:
Dato' Bernard Chandran and wife, Datin Mary Lourdes; Dato' Professor Jimmy Choo; Serena C from Hitz.tv; Pop singer Camelia ( who is also the face of this year's MIFW ); designer of the year, Melinda Looi; Winnie Loo from A Cut Above; designer Tom Abang Saufi; style editor of The Edge, Cheryl Ambrose; previous newscaster Mahathir Lokman; president of MIFA, Nancy Yeoh.

among the high profiled ppl is a princess from Pahang, a minister from the tourism industry, some producer from Sex and the City... and a whole lots more of other fashion designers dat i haf no idea who. pardon me la, i was not very into the fashion industry oni. dat is, until last nite. haha!

and fashion comes along with some wierd ppl as well. u know those things they say about designers, well, they are true. some of them are real sissies. men with a feminine side. i dunno who they are but they juz gimme the creeps. geli. there was one in a bright pink shirt and walked like a lady. another in a colourful glittery suit and carried a furry bull dog hand bag. * eeeeeww* another in a leaopard print coat with huge shades. dah la, it was dark in there. an old lady with kedut skin wearing skin tight outfit and heavy make up and fake blond hair. *omg* i stood as far away from her as possible. no way im gonna get photographed anywer near her. no way!trying to grab the limelight i suppose. wrong tactic la.

we managed to snapped some pics ( they will be uploaded in frenster once i've compiled them all ), watched the fashion runway from the new designer and got highed a little...hehe. too many good looking guys around. wahahaha! anyway, the Mot Promising Designer went to a chap from Raffles Institute of Design. he had all his frens cheering for him. how nice! and he's very young. so talented at a such a young age. * thumbs up*

the whole thing ended at around 1.30 am. i guess i wont regret turning up. an eye opener. socialites party. it was an experience to be a part of it. even if it's juz for once.

and yah, did i mention Melinda Looi is a nice person? well, she is. humble and sweet. petite and friendly. got to meet her face to face... :) and i need to compliment Serena C for her hosting skills. she surely is good at it. yea.

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The fickle minded me

It was a real lousy day. Well, I made it lousy.

I din noe wat I was doing. I agreed to 2 different parties that I'll turn up to 2 entirely different events. Both happening this weekend. Shit. Now that I've confirmed on both sides, I need to back out on one. And the one dat I backed out was the one that I first agreed. Guilt struck. I just gaf the first party an irresponsible impression. Someone who doesn't keep her word. Someone who's not serious in her decisions.

I juz din noe wat got into me. Honestly, I was interested in both of the events. They gif 2 different types of experiences. And I knew I cud only choose one. Wat made me say 'yes' to the second one anyway? I've landed myself in trouble. And more trouble for the first party as arrangements have been made. Worst, both parties have actually made the necessary arrangements for my participation. Great. Since when did I became so damn selfish? To juz only think about myself? And wat the hell got into me today?

I hate myself.

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Don't mess with us!

Sis and I have this common liking when we dine at this particular cafe at leisure mall. I shall leave it to u all to guess the cafe dat I'm talking about. But each time we were there, the same frustrations occured and both sis and I have the same enjoyment of throwing our temper at the waiter and waitresses there.Hah!

Just like dinner a few hrs ago. The place was full and the only table available was one rite in front of the main entrance. I dun really like the idea to eat while having ppl looking at ur dishes. Especially when there's a queue. Mum spotted an empty table in the middle and requested for a change. The waitress was trying to save all the 'mafanness' of switching and said dat every table is the same. It doesnt matter wer ur seated at. Woa...mistake! Sis got heated up and replied back, " But I dun like seating at the entrance". Mum was gonna gif in when i got up, told the waitress in the face " Neither do I," and stormed rite to the empty table, without waiting for her to gif a response. Haha. Such enjoyment. She terpaksa gif in to us la. ;p

Service was not very satisfactory either. Not dat they were understaffed or anything like dat. There were quite a number of waiters and waitresses around. But all of them seemed to be crowding around the counter with their backs towards the tables. Wat the heck! U were employed just to hang around izzit? As if they dun care when a customer calls for them. Ish! Feel like throwing a stone at them to get their attention. A few stones wud do a better job.

Then there was the menu. I ordered a particular waffle and the guy said it was not available for the day. Okay. Fine. I then pointed to a sandwich and he said it was not available too. Okay. I pointed to another dish and asked, "Then is THIS available?". Guess wat, he said NO as well. Crap! My turn to heat up. I closed the menu, turned to him and asked, "So wat is AVAILABLE?" with a real frustrated look. He suggested a few which i dun feel like eating. Wat kind of place is this? Ur operating a cafe and yet u tell ur customers dat most of the dishes on the menu are not available. Then wat to eat?

They took like forever to serve as well. Sis reminded them a couple of times. They said " Okay. Okay. Coming." and then forgot all about it. Sis was on the verge of 'slapping' them when her dish finally came. And it looked as if it was not cooked well enuf. If there was a suggestion box there, I wud haf criticised them cukup cukup.Is this how u treat ur customers?

Not only is the service damn bad, the place is not very hygenic either. Halfway thru the meal, we actually saw a huge rat jumping down the stairs (yeah, its a 2 level kind of place). I wud haf forgiven them if i was at a mamak or something like dat. But this is a cafe. At leisure mall man! No comments anymore. The rat was rather cute tho.

Sis and I made it a point to gif them a piece of our minds every time we go there. Yea, we wud be going back coz mum likes it there. Dunno why. Hehe. To remind them of their lousiness. ;p

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Little Taiwan @ SS15

there was a gathering last nite. not much of a gathering oso la anyway. i see u all almost every other week. maybe it's different this week coz winnie's there. but still i was not in the mood to head all the way up to SS15. sorry girl if i made u think i had not wanted to meet up wif u.

but i went up too anyway. yah, the soft hearted me. still, i dun get the logic of why i need to be there. from all the looks of it, it really doesnt matter if i turn up or not. but dia went to all the trouble to get me out of the house, so i went la.

Little Taiwan's situated rite opposite Taylor's College. On the same row as Asia Cafe. If anyone wants to try dat place out, rmbr to head upstairs to wer all the couches are. Real comfy and they do really gif u a sense of relaxation. The stereo was playing some really nice symphonies. Especially "we are the world" by michael jackson. hehe. segarians shud noe wat this song meant rite. there, for the special kids programme we had back then. it juz brought me back there for a while. The inter deco was 'cun' too. they haf all these neon lightings on the walls. some white and violet transparent curtains at the washrooms. if i had my room decorated like dat... ;p

food and drinks was on the average side. pricing was fair too..usual cafe prices. i was more into their atmosphere la. we switched over to sit on the couches and pillows later throughout the nite. it was too comfy dat i slept a while la...hahahha. sakai rite? went out to sleep.

but it was new place dat i got to check out. we crapped a while. caught up on things. fooled around. and then left. i still haf no idea why was i there.

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REC Industrial Update/Group Dinner

It's an annual thingy. REC wud haf this training/industry updates ( as they call it ) once a year to brief staffs on the new issues in the auditing line. This year's limelight was on the transition from MASB to FRSs in regards to public listed companies.

We had ours this year at University Malaya. We booked Rumah University for the whole day. Around 140 ppl turned up. From partners to managers to seniors to juniors. UM sure is huge. And some of their buildings still have this British structures in them. Real 'cun'. There was some exams going on campus, so, we saw students doing last minute cramming on the sidewalks and on the steps. Hah! I'm thru with all those. :p

Rumah University is an "antique" double storey house. Dat's why it's called a rumah. We had our trainings and discussions in this some sort of conference room on the first floor. It was comfy altho a little crammed for the so many of us. To be frank, it was bored la. The managers were doing all the talking and we were doing all the listening. Some fell asleep and some 'entertained' themselves. Me and sharon were juz plain talking...and gossipping. Haha!

We had games to lightened up at the end of the day. We were divided into groups. The task was to use 2 newspapers and 5 A4 papers to increase the height of our group leaders in 15 minutes. Winners will be based on creativity, durability and obviously height. Winners will each get a prize while the losers will need to perform at the group dinner later on. It was fun. And it was a rush. In the end, my group didn't win...and we didn't lose either.

Ooo...finally it was time to head to the long awaited group dinner at Tropicana Golf & Country Resort. Dat's wer wealthy ppl stay. And i can say, they are truly very very wealthy! The whole parking area was filled with RECians' vehicles. One whole gang masuk macam itu. Cool. Dinner was buffet styled. But not much of varieties. Who cares! We enjoyed the performances more. I didn't stop laughing the entire nite. The performances they laid out was damn hilarious. We had really sporting managers and staffs. And the performance master did his job well. There was a fashion show. Followed by a real silly Q & A session. Then the managers were forced to sing. There were lucky draws and exchange of gifts for everyone. I got this really cute doggie. It's sitting in my car rite now. The whole thing ended at around 10.30. We stayed on till like 11 for some group and personal photograph sessions.

No. It was not over yet. Belum mau balik lagi. The few of us went to Baywatch to yam cha. It's some wer in Tropicana oso la. We had wanted to go since the last few weeks. My this colleague gaf in and finally brought us there. The environment is sort of cool. They haf an aquarium of sharks at the entrance. It's more of a pub la. But since it was a Thursday nite, it was quite empty. We were the only big group seated there. Making a whole lot of noise with all the laughters and b/g relationships. Plus a 'few' going to be drunk ppl talking nonsense. First time out for a nite drink with my colleagues. A whole different experience. We shall hang out more often in the coming days. ;)

The supposedly 15 minutes drink lasted to an hr and a half. Haha. Reached home around 1 in the morning. Phew! Was out the entire day. Woke up early for work the next morning. Arghh!

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Last chances

time and time again they were unspokenly given,
as expected, they were not taken,
somehow, a little hope still lay hidden,
but after so long, even dat is broken,
as the heart saddens,
the mind made a hesitant decision,
the finale to this piece has finally been chosen,
pray dat there are no regrets for this action.

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Sudden ill

caught me unexpectedly. didnt know this was coming. there were no symptons wat so eva.

all i did was went for lunch 2 days ago, went back to my work place still feeling fine, until 2 hrs later when my tummy started to churn and the next thing i knew i was running to the washroom to haf my lunch all thrown out. twice. gosh! my tummy was still churning by the time i left for home. lost all mood to work for dat last few hrs. felt really sick.

reached home with a spinning head and crashed immediately. coz i was not seeing things clearly anymore. needed to lie down badly. woke up few hrs later to throw up again. mum noticed and whisked me off to the hospital right away. clinics were all closed by dat time. and the doctor took like forever to attend to me. sigh! in the end, i was diaognised with indigestion and high fever. went home to vomit another time. everything i ate, came back out in a matter of minutes. fine. so i juz popped in the pills and went to bed.

obviously not going to work the next day in this condition, i slept all throughout the day. waking up only to take medicines and to answer calls. i dunno wat's with my acquaintances, but my cell never stopped vibrating yesterday. calls and messages came from colleagues (thanx for all the concerns), frens and even ex colleagues. arghhhh!!! how come when i want my phone to ring, it doesnt? and on my sick day, it didnt stopped ringing! in my stage of drowsiness, i wonder if i sent the rite message back to the rite people. hehe.

felt alot better when i woke up last nite. no more throwing up. fever subsided. today still abit blur la. too much of sleep. but still managed to head out to a colleague's gathering. hehe. i juz cant sit still. lolz.

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Lion jumped

Lion. aunt's pet dog. age 100 years (well, as equivalent to a human's life). jumped from the 1st floor balcony. landed with a thud on the front porch. guests gaped. aunt shocked. lion barked non stop. blood trickling down its head. its whole body shaking. uncle carried it into the kitchen. still barking. woundn't stay still. aunt got worried. it was sent to the vet. and it didnt come back.

no la. not dead. juz need to stay at the vet's for further examination.

wat on earth la? ever heard a dog jumped? not fell u noe. Jumped! lion muz be interested in joining us below. cant wait to take the stairs i presume. it was juz a few of us barbequing anyway...yah, bbq again. i muz say, mates, we did a better job 2 weeks ago. everything turned black this time. hahaha.

poor lion. aunt's fav.

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Complimented

a lot of sweet talkers in office lately. or they memang pun liddat. oni dat my realisation came abit later. hahaha. both guys n girls.

was absent from office for a few weeks. got back in oni this week. with a new hairdo. *hint*
so now u noe wat did i get complimented about. lolz.

my spirits were lifted to the clouds. yeah!

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Got hit

yupz. i got involved in an accident this afternoon. my new car...gone!

this car hit me from behind. my bumper cracked. and the whole thing needs to be replaced. i din asked for compensations and neither did he. will let the insurance take care of it. but i guess his car was worst off. the bonet of his satria was lifted up. and smoke was rising from wat eva it is dat caused it. u noe me. cars and i. we dun connect. lolz.

but i was shaking. and it was raining. and i had to deal with this total stranger alone dat made it looked as if it was my fault dat he knocked into me. and obviously, i called dad. he juz told me one thing. dun pay anything. dun admit anything. get his details and get to the police station. settled. nothing much said. dat fella was quite a gentleman anyway. at least he didnt raised his temper or came yelling at me with a parang or something. of coz he wudnt. HE knocked into me!

rite. so here i am. not hurt la. going to the police station later. "sam tong". my baby tercacated dy.

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Almost got snatch thieved

There were 2 gatherings last saturday nite. 2 birthday gatherings. A belated one and an advanced one. Snce both birthday babies are close frens, it wud be rude to not turn up (excuse. actually, I was the one who wanted to hang out...hehehe). So i went for both. One after the other.

The incident happened when I was on my way to the second gathering. It was rather late by the time I headed to the venue. It was at this place dat I'm not familiar with. And quite far from the first venue. So by the time i got sesat, it got later. And still I cudnt find the place. U noe la, I have no sense of directions. Another fren had to come out to get me. Paiseh! :p

And so I parked and walked over to the cafe. In the meantime, I fiddled with my keys and phone in my handbag. The road to the cafe was full of cars and quite a number of ppl were waliking around. I, was busy talking to my fren. Then I saw this bike going slow headed towards us. 2 indians. My fren moved over closer to my side. The bike rode past. And I was still talking.

Seconds later, we both heard a scream from behind. We turned just in time to see this girl pointing towards the SAME bike that sped off. They had taken her bag. One of he frens gave chase on foot. Only then did I realised dat they were actually snatch thieves! Eyeing for victims! If my fren had not walked over closer to me and foiled their intentions, I wud have been the one pointing and screaming. And I guess he'll be the one chasing. Wat if they were armed? Thinking back about it now gives me the shivers. I was lucky. Lucky to have my fren there as well. Felt sorry for dat girl. She was not hurt. But not sure if she got her bag back. We didnt stay long on the streets. We had quickened our pace to the cafe. Who wudnt?

I really thank my fren for the escort dat nite. I dun think I'll walk to anywer alone anymore. Especially at nite. And I dun think I'll fiddle with my handbag when I'm walking. I'll keep an eye on my surroundings from now on. Once is enuf. Altho it was an 'almost' case.

Did my fren came closer to my side to let the bike pass or did he sensed danger fromr those 2 fellas? Shall ask him when i see him again the next time.

And girls, take note alrite?
Be safe.

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Fortune teller

i know, i know. i mentioned before dat i dun believe in stuffs like this. i only believe in myself. ceh.

but, anyway, out of curiosity, i went to see this fella. thru all my frens who've visited him, they claimed dat he's good. very good. accurate. so i was there at his stall this afternoon. no. yesterday afternoon. since it's past 12 now.

he's this rather plump man, around early forties. his stall is situated in the middle of a mall and is full of crystal peripherals. bracelets. pendants. ornaments. accesories etc etc. he wud be standing there in the middle reading ppl's palms. and they are all chinese ppl. chinese aunties to be exact. chinese aunties who really believed in him. religious ppl i wud say. we actually had to line up to see him. get a number and wait. wait till he's done with those dat came before us. alrite, so we waited. for 3 whole hours.

my turn finally. braced myself for the worst. and true enuf, it was worse than i tot. according to mr fortune teller, i was doomed from birth. to the day i leave this world. im not exagerating. even tho he din really say dat, but it's pretty much the same thing. from my palms, he was able to tell dat : i sucked at relationships ( which explains y im still single up to date ), and even if i did get married, it wont be a 'happily ever after' one.
oh-kay. next, i will have my own business. and i'll only reap the fruits after going thru some hard times. even then, the fruits will only be sweet for a short period of time. oh-kay. i'll be suffering all throughout my life. particularly at old age. oh-kay. i will be full of illness. oh-kay. and i'll eventually put on lots of weight later in life. oh-kay. and my grades are on the average side only. not very outstanding. OH-kay.

sounds like i dun believe everything he said, huh. well, the truth is, i dun even noe if i shud believe him. my life, from his words, is like the worst of the worst. and im still living. i might as well die then. save myself from all those miseries. dat's y i went "okay. alrite. uh-huh." to all dat he has to say. his words doesnt seem to have an effect la. i was not worried and i din go like "oh, no! wat am i to do now?" dat kind of reaction, u noe. maybe i half expected wat he has to say. and im cool about it. i already knew my life wont be as good compared to others. and i dun care. nothing i can do anyway.

but, in the end, i did buy a crystal bracelet from him. a dark purple one which supposely able to change my life for the better. everyone happens to own one and so i tot, y not? it looks nice wat. hehe. either i'll be putting it on as another one of my accesories or im really curious to know if it'll bring some difference to my life. we shall see in due course.

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BBQ nite

triple celebrations last nite. 3 birthday babies. van, rach and dia. and it was raya eve.

the whole gang was there. everyone turned up. at van's place. since her family was not in, we totally made ourselves at home. making a whole lot of noise. a party wont be a party without some loud ppl.

highlights of the nite:

• late ppl making 'big' entrances
• guys barbequeing food the wrong way ( ALL of them made the same mistake...guys! )
• using the charcoal 'scissors' to pick food (and ate it anyway..)
• home made curry fish balls. nope. curry chicken balls.
• 2 individuals kept whispering among themselves. alone. a guy and a girl.
• 2 couples forced to french kiss. sportingly enuf, they did!
• guys syoked sendiri by forming into a circle with a lighted candle in the middle and sang a birthday song to celebrate the upcoming birthday of another guy fren.
• a usually noisy person suddenly turned quiet the whole nite. prompting questions from everyone. but no one dared to ask.
• girls cleaned up in the kitchen while guys messed around. kacau!
• 13 of us cramped around a small table to settle debts. wallets out. calculators out. bbq costs settled. cake settled. gifts settled. messy. but all settled.
• watched fireworks display at 12. raya! totally awesome. but something was missing. or rather someone.
• the end. everyone else left with company. i left alone. *sniff*

been doing a lot of thinking. i've paid too much attention on them the past year. they were my only focus. it's becoz i was happy when im around them. i got hurt when i failed to get back the attention i poured out. i neglected other ppl dat cared too. until when long lost frens started to drop me messages only did i realised dat they are not the only ones. i still have others. how silly it is of me.

i tried a different way to handle my feelings. to forgive and forget. to not take things too seriously. to be myself. to not care so much anymore. to be a little ignorant. to adopt " wat goes around comes around".

keep my mind occupied. keep my life occupied. i guess i'll feel better dat way.

and girls,

happy belated birthday. happy birthday. happy birthday in advance.

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Kids

i have nothing against kids...they are adorable and sweet...and at the age of between 1 to 10, dat is the happiest stage in life..no worries, no problems...everything will be taken cared of by mum and dad...and all u need to do is juz play, play and play...haf fun!

but, dun get overboard or u'll irritate ppl like me.

i was at leisure mall this afternoon, scouting for birthday gifts ( yah..again!) ... and after getting them, i went over to the autopay machine to pay for the parking fare..the queue was already very long and there was this particular lady up front with 3 kids in tow... they were making a whole lot of noise and they kept pestering her to let them pay...she gaf in...and since they were all kids, they couldnt reach the money slot..she had to carry EACH of them up in order for them to insert dat 3 bucks...and obviously they didnt inserted the notes in the correct way...the notes were rejected a few times! she really was wasting our time... either she was being really blind or she has no sense of rationalism or she didnt bring her brains out today...i understand if u really love ur kids and if u really wanna let them try out new things in life... dun do it at the expense of other ppl's time...gosh!

another incident at the cinema a few weeks back...was watching this movie with my folks... obviously a "U" rated one...i was very into this scene and all of a sudden my seat started to 'shake'...okay, i ignored it the first time...and then it came again...and again...and again...i turned around and found this kid...holding the back of my seat and jumping...i think mummy noticed me and imemdiately hushed her down...even then, she was not totally quiet...she kept going "mummy, wat are they doing?"..."mummy, is dat bag urs?"... "mummy, i want the lollipop"... "mummy, this..." "mummy, dat..." ish! if i had been a little bit more impatient....i wud have snapped back at her and her mum... goodness! if u wanna watch a movie...leave ur kids with someone else...they dun understand anyway... dun gif so much trouble to other ppl and to urself...and some other kid down the line started to merajuk and cried nonstop... daddy had to take him out to give everyone else a peace of mind....aihz! i shall opt for non "U" rated movies next time...

festive season...i accompanied mum to a supermarket nearby to get some groceries...and yea, kids again!! all over! one whole family with 5 to 6 kids in line...running up and down...screaming...playing with the products...and blocking the way for other trolleys to pass... i gaf up...i told mum to grab wateva we need and juz leave...some ppl are really too much... they are not considerate and they haf no concerns for other ppl...oopss! i forgot....human nature rite... we only think about ourselves...to hell with the rest...not important!

and parents...u have a huge responsibility...plz teach ur kids to behave in public... they will reflect on u...it's not a matter if u care or not...

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Proud to be friends

It's Deepavalli! okay, i know it has already past...but i'm still in the mood for it...

went over to aunt's place for the celebrations and for the annual lunch...munched on the tidbits (muruku!) and messed around with jay kor...and met his new girl...chinese, my age, petite, friendly and cool...it was nice talking to her...keep her close, jay! i did checked out jay kor's frens...but nah, non suitable...lolz!

then i headed over to summit to join my pals for bowling...have not bowled in years, man! i still remember i had picked up the skill from my fellow segarians back in high school, during one of the gatherings we had back then...it was fun, and it did brought back old memories...especially when there's a whole gang of us again... altho it's a whole different gang now...but it's sort of the same thing...i still enjoyed my time there... hey, im not too bad either...i did strike a few times...yea, i now...out of luck...lolz

since it was still early for dinner when we left...we went loitering around the gift shops there to scout for suitable birthday gifts for those celebrating their birthdays these few days...i dunno wat's wif oct and nov, but i haf like 10 close frens being born in juz a span of 3 weeks from each other...poor me! no!...my poor wallet!

anyway, we were loitering for quite some time in this gift shop, comparing this teddy with dat cow with dat pig and to dat doggie...when i felt a little bored and went to look at other stuffs in the next section when the owner came over to haf a brief chat... she's a nice lady...she said she was happy to see a bunch of friends still able to hang out together... judging from the fact that we are all working already...i was kinda surprised how she knew dat...she said our looks says it all...do we look like we are fresh from college and juz started to venture into the career zone? boy, she sure does haf a sharp vision....but i did felt proud when she said those.... we, still able to keep in touch... i looked back at them and thought " It really does feel good to have a bunch of frens"...for some laughter, for some company and for some support... (if u erase those scenes wer they break ur heart, u shud be fine)

a very close fren had once told me dat he too felt proud dat he cud still keep his 10 years old of friendship with us... and it is this particular close fren dat had been missing in action for the past year...some sort of a close fren! segarians haf passed the 10 years mark...and we do keep in touch still...beam with pride ppl! hahaha...we shall see if we make it to the 20 years one... *fingers crossed*

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The evening of Friday the 13th

wat do u get when u combine a hyena, a sakai, a chatterbox, a joker, a 'mosquitoe', a manja, a blur case and a confidiant, all in one?

take a guess.

sleepy. tired. stuffed. laughed. fooled around. crapped. spilled. and sat in the car outside my place for half an hour. wat is there more to say...

one wild nite. no. one crazy nite.

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The 'art' of 'drifting'

another solemn entry. spare urself. i dun care.

( monday. 3 pm. rainy weather. kim gary, sunway pyramid. barely empty. the sofa-ed long table rite at the end, by the window. additional tables added. 12 ppl. guys n girls. college students. eating n drinking. chatting n laughing. snappig pictures. gossiping, crapping and checking out passers-by. left all together later. kim gary immediately went still. )

sounds familiar? well, i was one of those 12 ppl not too far back. now, i can only be seated in one of those odd tables in the middle watching them n putting up a smile. which turned into a sigh a few seconds later. ah, the good ol' days. when we were all still together. lately....work, work, work. study. dating. family. commitments. tiredness. we no longer have time for each other.

from close to apart. from near to far. from far to near and then became further. from not too close to very close and then to "u seem to be a stranger to me now". conversations from "everything on earth" became to juz a mere "hi" and "bye" now. from "i see u almost every week" back then to "i din even see u once in 3 months" now. the advancement in technology doesnt seem to be of much help.

more recent news from here and there imply dat certain circumstances will 'sweep' us even further away. in different directions. life. ppl keep saying it's the norm when ur age creeps up with u. i refuse to believe the truth in it. someone once asked, "wer do u think we wud b 10 years from now?"...."would we still have this special bond between us?"..."wud we still be able to hang out like we used to 10 years ago?"

the bond is 'loosening'. we might bum into each other 10 years later and u might not even gimme a second look. ur life. my life. pre-arranged, we cross each other's path. u came into my life. i went into yours. u left footsteps in my life. i left mine in yours. wat next? fate decides.

i still think it wud be a waste. all those years of friendship. thrown away juz like dat? dun they mean anything? they certainly did for me. certainly.

sad.

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Happy mooncake festival

im still in office...it's friday and everyone left real early...i haf no idea wat im doing here actually...alrite, maybe i do...i dun haf any plans to go anywer and i dun feel like going home...so i let myself hang around my work place...to blog... pathetic!

yeah, at times like this i feel so sorry for myself...y din i pick up the phone? y din anyone called? my life...alwiz waiting for something nice to happen...and if it doesnt, i juz sit around...letting it pass...letting my youth pass, dat is...giving all kinds of excuses, dat fooled all other ppl but never myself...

boils down to attitude i guess....i never am the one to initiate anything...i never am the one to accomplish anything...i juz let everything be...and in the end, i regretted for not taking any actions...for not saying the words i wanted to say...for not doing the things i felt like doing....wat the hell is wrong wif me? my folks are pressuring... my frens are disappearing... my life is boring... and im sick wif everything...

and here, on this weekend nite....im still anticipating my cell to ring...
by whom?

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Don't know wat's the point

Argue. Argue. Argue.

Push the blame and raise the voices.

One leaves. One complains, complains, complains.

I choose to flee the scene. Do not wanna see anything. Do not wanna hear anything.

Who's fault is it really, anyway?

Sick.

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Work, play and getting ill

It has been a real hectic month. Me going from one place to the next. Barely had enuf rest and water. Waking up early and going to bed late. But it was a good experience and i genuinely did had fun. Leaving KL for a couple of weeks or so did indeed broadened up my 'horizons'. Met different ppl. Saw different things. Felt the countryside. Opened up my thinking. It was the perfect getaway i needed. Well, not exactly a getaway la, coz i was actually working most of the time.

As i mentioned, i was up in the northern part of malaysia for work purposes. I cant disclose too much about wat type of work i did due to confidentiality issues. It was not something new but since it was my first time getting involved in something like this, it was actually interesting. Altho at times we had to work past midnite and wif me getting ill for a few days. Yah, me...ill again. Got the flu for 2 days, fever for 2 days...serious fever, sore throat for a day and coughed a few nites. My voice turned hoarse and i was like seeing stars when doing my work. All while im away from home. No idea how many pills had i popped in dy.

And i still had the energy to go shopping and sight seeing. Geng! No way im gonna miss all the opportunity while im there, rite? Since we had a car to ourselves, we drove for an hour to Kuala Perlis for seafood. At nite! and wif 4 gals who are not familiar wif the place there. Damn daring! But wat the heck, we do anything for good food. Hahahaha! It was indeed good..crab, fish, sotong, vege..all for less than 80 bucks. Yummm...

Then there was the eating spree at Penang. Laksa, char kuey teow, rojak, oysters, bubur cha chas, bak kut teh, ikan bakar, crepes etc etc. Plus strolling down Gurney Drive to feel the sea breeze...syok! Real relaxing. I did mention i like wind blowing at my face rite...hehehhe...Plus a couple of weekend movies and numerous dangerous drivings. KL ppl. Dat's the only excuse. :p

For all Taiping ppl, i apologise first, but dat place is really so sad la. Nothing to do. Nothing to eat. Nothing to see. No nite life! And the night safari does not live up to its name. I dun think i can survive long there. The same goes for Alor Star. Slightly better than Taiping but still sad. Good for short vacations, but for a long term..no, thank you. KL ppl. Once one, will alwiz be one. Lolz!

So, im back now. Life goes on as usual.

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Bangkok/Pattaya

yeap...im back! and the trip to thailand was totally awesome...even tho everything was a rush...from the moment i stepped onto the plane at LCCT till the moment i stepped down from it...here's a brief insight on my 4 days there...

Day 1
boarded the evening flight from LCCT straight to Don Muang airport..the flight took 2 hrs and i dun like the seats up on Air Asia..it was up rite straight and u dun get much space between the seats..sort of cramped...so not comfy... other than dat, the service and the clealiness was fine...felt dizzy up on the plane and i slept through out the flight...

reached the airport and immediately got swept away by our malaysian tour guide to the bus dat was waiting at the entrance... drove straight to Prince Palace for the group dinner...we were already late and yet we still had to get stuck in traffic jams...i can tell u one thing...traffic in bangkok city is much worse than those in kl... red lights take ages to change to green and u can actually get stuck in ONE spot for half an hr...without moving AT ALL... on top of all dat, u haf to make way for some royal highness to pass... got real tired of waiting...but can we all do rite? our thai tour guide ( wif his not-so-fluent english ) talked non-stop all along the way... telling us about our itenary...places of interest, food to eat, buildings along the street and most importantly...places to shop!

was late for dinner so the organizing committee postponed it to half an hr later...din even bathe...got dressed rite away, freshened up and headed staright down to the ballroom...dinner was usual la...like those u normally go to...only this one had short and wacky performances, lucky draws, games, laughter, laughter and lots of laughter... food was a mixture of thai, asian and western cuisines...

went to bed quite late due to all the gossips and chatting wif my room mate... n she was the one who complained she was tired...

Day 2
went to the floating market 2 hrs away from the city...no, not exactly...the jeti was 2 hrs away from the city...from the jeti another half an hr by sampan to the market...and then got onto another sampan to move around the market...it was real hot and stuffy... and ever heard of sampan jam? well, it happned there...it amazes me to see senior thai citizens rowing a fully loaded sampan, bargain wif u, packed ur stuffs, receiving money and calling out to other customers...all AT ONCE! *thumbs up*...no way i can do dat...souveniers were all the same from sampan to sampan...only the food is different....cute, cheap and tasty...yummm...

then another 2 hrs back to the city for lunch...everything was well arranged...all we had to do was juz eat...hahaha...jammed to the gem factory after dat...no one bought anything from there...lolz....and then jammed to the leather factory...dunno for wat...coz we juz walked in...used the washroom and then walked straight out...totally mou liu...but it was in the itenary, so we HAD to go...jammed to MBK shopping mall after dat and we oni had 1 hr to shop b4 being whisked away for dinner..din buy anything from there oso anyway...coz it's juz like midvalley...wateva u see there, u'll c it in midvalley...and the prices are about the same too...so no point buying there oso...

then rushed to dinner and then rushed to watch thai girl show...hehhehe...nothing new...all the stunts were expected b4 we went in...it was so boring at one point dat some ppl actually fell asleep... the girls were not pretty anyway...neither were their bodies...so nothing to see actually....dun waste ur bahts there if u do go to thailand...after like an hr there, we were rushed to the nite bazaar...it was closing but we did get to grab some really cheap stuffs...hahhaha...dats were all the souveniers came from...

and then we were rushed back to the hotel to rest...one very rush day...

Day 3
planned to wake up early to shop at the morning market...but for the lazy me..might as well sleep la...hehhee...the market opens at 3 am u noe...how cud i possibly wake up dat early? anyway, we rushed to the Reclining Buddha after breakfast and then rushed to the safari world...more time wasted...we are adults...y do we need to go to the zoo for? animals dun interest us anymore...anyhow, it was another MUZ go type of thing...so we had no choice la...watched a lame cowboy show which was in thai..so we had no idea wat were they talking about oso...alot of running and shooting and bombings...i think kids wud like dat more...lolz...then rushed to lunch n then to a dolphin and whale show...now dat was nice...the oni nice thing in the safari...

it was raining when we left for pattaya...another 2-3 hrs...everyone was fast asleep on the bus...even the tour guide stopped entertaining us...coz no one was listening dy...lolz....reached pattaya late evening and then rushed to the massage parlour for our 2 hrs of thai massage...real syok man! this plump lady was cracking my every bone...ive never heard my bones making all these sounds b4...hahahhaa...and did i meantion i fell of the bed? yah, me...lolz

rushed to dinner and then rushed to watch the famous aqua show...superb! if they dun speak, u wont noe...they look much prettier and much shapely than anyone of us here...and their costumes were totally eye-catching...all the guys went ga-ga over them...well, they are guys too anyway...lolz...we were told dat the thai government actually subsidised their surgery...all they have to pay is 30 baht..dat means oni RM3! anyone wanna go for it?

then we checked into a budget hotel...real budget...rite in the middle of pattaya's nite life...real noisy... din sleep much dat nite too coz we went out to get a glimpse of pattaya's clubbing streets...there were clubs everywer...from lame ones to real poshy and happening ones...aquas were every wer... and plump ladies in skimpy outfits doing pole dancing...total eye sore! still tonnes of mat salleh were sitting and watching...it is different from our clubbing scenes...u wont noe if dat chick nx to u is male or female...

Day 4
headed to the coral island early in the morning...another rushed fun...imagine going to the beach for less than half a day...wat the heck...anyhow, did managed to parasail, went on the banana boat, dipped in clear water and did some light shopping... and then rushed back to the hotel to bathe and pack and then rushed to the airport for our flight home...skipped lunch dat day and eveyone was like rushing to get something to eat at the airport before boarding the flight...it was nite by the time i reached LCCT...tired and hungry...

All in all, i wud say this trip was a real rush case...worsen by jams and delays...sigh! tired from all the travelling than from the sight-seeing and shopping...but it was fun...din noe my colleagues all can be so wacky...out of the office...hahhaha...got to noe some new ppl...some which ive not even seen b4....din really get the names of all the places dat they took us...coz we were rushing in and out...and there was alwiz a serving of tom yam for our every meal...the taste gets better from place to place...but since i dun take spicy stuffs...so, not much effect on me...heheheh...and lucky us, we returned safe and sound rite before the military coup..phew!

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Missing dear friends

mind me...didnt plan to come in actually...was bz packing for tmr...but then tot of u ppl all of a sudden...

it was exactly one week ago dat we were having so much fun...dancing n laughing... miss dat moment...off and on i smiled as i tot of dat nite...wudnt it be great if dat nite didnt end? i've been keeping a group pic of us on my desk...each time i looked at it, it reminded me of all the times we've been thru....all the years of friendship we had....short but sweet...the memories will continue to stay...no matter how long...this week was a quiet one...din really hear from u all.....

it's very quiet on the segar-ians side too...no news oso wat so eva...really miss u all...u haf no idea how much...

at times like this...the emptiness creeps in again...
the hollowness stays on....

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Going outstation

juz wanna let u all noe ( for those who reads my stuffs ), i'll be away from kl for the next few weeks, starting from this sunday till almost the end of the month...i'll be up in the northern part of Malaysia for work purposes... and then i'll be heading straight to Bangkok for my company trip...but i will be back in between la...a day here n there...

anyone want any souveniers or food or wateva from ipoh, kedah, penang and places around there...lemme noe la...i'll try to get them for u guys IF i have time off from work...i can still be contacted via my cell...feel free to kacau me anytime....

sorry to dear li wei and fong mei coz i cant be wif u 2 to celebrate ur birthdays this year...happy birthday very in advance!

p/s : save up some gossips for me when i return, alrite? lolz....

till then, take care ppl!
toodles!

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Bullied?

am i being too nice? or i didnt noe how to say 'no'?

i felt being used and being taken advantaged of... issues dat others didnt wanna settle were pushed to me..i've been asked to go to places where others didnt wanna go...i even had to call up nasty nasty clients where the rest felt afraid to deal with...and wat can i say? im juz a newbie around...all they said were"it's a chance for u to learn and handle things"...is this the way to be?

i tried to see things in a brighter view...too see from a different perspective...dat i shudnt frown and to haf a more open mind on my job...i tried to take it easy and juz enjoy wateva dat i was asked to do...but those doesnt last long when the situation continues...the tasks are never-ending....i actually wud be glad to help around but to do stuffs that are out of my line, i wud like to think it's too much...i felt like hitting it back to my seniors but then i tot it wudnt be appropriate...who am i anyway rite?

i dunno how long i can put up with this mentally...im not really dat 'strong' after all... i head out to work every morning wondering if all these is wat i really liked to do...and did it really fulfill my purpose in life...i didnt find the passion in doing audit...i guess it's juz not my cup of tea...but my parents see it as a stable job...and i wud haf a bright future in this line...they are both at retiring age...and i understand it's the point in life where u wud feel unsecure about wat the future holds for u...this is the time for them to rely on their kids...but i am still at the cross road...unsure of which path to take..i didnt wanna turn into the wrong lane and spend the rest of my life regretting my decision....can i at least choose the path that i wanted to?

i've talked about this before...i've talked to mum about it, dat i felt like quitting...she gaf me this disappointed look and i knew right away dat i will be stuck doing this for quite some time...even tho she did say dat she wud support me if i wanted to do other things...but deep down it's not...dad seems very confident dat his girl wud continue his dream to be a successful accountant...little did dad know dat his little girl here is actually 'suffocating' and 'drowning' at the same time...

can someone guide me out of this maze? i cant find the door...and im afraid of being in the dark...

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Rush

would u have believed it?... i, the goody good girl, actually went clubbing last sat nite...yup, u heard me rite... surprise surprise...my very first time...i noe im a little late to start hanging out in clubs...but i have to say, it was totally awesome!

we were indeed rushing to Rush...coz we had to get in before 10 so dat we cud save up on the entrance fees... and some GUYS were taking a longer time to get dressed? or were there other excuses...no matter wat, it pissed piggy and she literally screamed at them when they finally arrived...and we arrived juz a few minutes before 10...phew!

chose our alcoholic drink...got our wrists stamped and went in to a barely empty club with juz a few staffs and securities around...even tho we were dat early, all the comfy sofa seats were actually pre-booked and all that was left were 2 tables and 3 miserable chairs for the 10 of us...fine...music was not dat 'hot' yet, the club was not crowded enuf and no one felt like dancing...so we talked crap for dat hr or so and kept toasting our glasses of whiskies to wateva it is we can think of - to frenship, to work, to monkeys and pigs, to relationships etc etc....with the guys kept bottom-ing up theirs while checking out hot chicks along the way...

the atmosphere finally became hot n happening at around 12...music was real loud n up to beat, u cant even hear d person talking in ur ear...it became real crowded with barely enuf room to stand,let alone dance....the floor was all slippery with spilled drinks...and young men there were all starring at u as if they never seen girls before...alot of big burly security personnels around....and i bumped into some frens who were totally surprised to see me there...lolz...

my dancing rhythm slowly caught up with the pace of the music...and i was like having the time of my life...jumping, singing, shaking, doing silly silly moves with my frens...but not to worry, i was not drunk...juz felt like letting myself loose, be crazy and not to gif a damn about anything...yeah! but it all ended too soon...i've not danced enuf yet...not becoz it was late... becoz most of the guys got real drunk and started to not being themselves...dat's wat u get for drinking non-stop...we had to get them out to save them from trouble...muahahha...

we spent quite a long time out on the pavement babysitting 'big' 'big' babies....it was tough...kept refusing to leave... kept talking loudly non-stop...kept wanted to check out girls...kept wanted to go yam cha...and some became too dizzy to stand...boy, it was surely fun to watch ur frens when they are drunk...u need to pujuk them to make them behave...so much drama....do wat u want to them coz they wont rmbr anything the nx day....hahahhaa....

there were road blocks on the way back...but luckily we were not stopped...and i reached piggy's place at around 3 am....we chatted for a while after she tucked her 'baby' in and then we slept at 4....woke up in the afternoon the nx day with a flu coz she blasted the air-cond the whole nite...gosh! poor me...

so there it is...my maiden voyage down to a club named Rush...actually it's not about wer u go...it's all about the ppl u hang with...dat's the difference....i really do appreciate moments with u all, at times...

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Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

( got this from an email someone sent me..some parts are rather inspiring.... )

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.
Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love isT-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

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Merdeka Eve

this is gonna be harsh...and i guess it'll hurt...

got a call to celebrate our independence day...after taking in all the neccesary concerns, i decided to turn up... i was trying to give it another shot...to see if things will turn better...

i headed out to pyramid after work only to get stuck in an hr of jam...all along the way, i kept thinking that it will be worthy to get in touch with them...but in that hr of jam on my way home juz now, i felt like crying and i felt like dying...nothing has changed...

u kept saying u missed me, u kept saying u wanted to see me, u kept saying u'll alwiz be there for me, u kept saying u didnt wanna see me unhappy, u kept saying u really meant all that u had said....but y did u still have to hurt me the way u did? outings were made without me. as usual. conversations were all about stuffs revolving u ppl...places u all went, things u all did, jokes u all said, wateva...nothing involved me as i was not a part of them...i felt like a total idiot and a total outcast sitting there...was really wondering what the heck was i there for...when i had wasted my fuel, my time and my energy juz to be there...one question, am i really considered a friend? am i really part of the gang? am i really a burden becoz i happen to live real far?

was i genuinely happy or was i juz faking it when i laughed? im not so sure...and then someone asked "will it be dangerous for u to drive back home alone later?" i appreciate the concern but wat's the point of juz asking? dota will alwiz be more important.....coming to think of it, when did anyone offered to escort me home after midnite yah? i dun think it ever crossed their minds...and i suppose tonite's the only nite where someone did called to see if i had reached home safely...i had lost count of the number of times i spent hanging out with them till late at nite...and each time it was miles and miles away from home...

i avoided calls and messages from u ppl the last few days...was being childish, i noe...but wat the heck...i was really hurt and upset...had missed u all damn bad and for all i noe later, u guys when out without me...and this was not the first time...wat am i to u all yah? a spare tyre? suka then call, tak suka then no need to call? i din noe i was this worthless........

i made a mistake in decision tonite....i shud have diverted my time to my other mates when they called....at least i can enjoy myself at the pool table..and to feel alot more 'safer' among them...instead of being all 'torn' and 'tatterred' before bed now...

and yah, Happy Merdeka! lack the spirit...lack the mood...merdeka was not the same as it used to be...

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