It's the end of the year, once more. Thought that I'd pen down one last entry before I sign the year off. I could still remember how I started the year. It was a drink with a friend of mine at a nearby cafe. And then I had to work on new year's day. Going on, the year has its share of ups and downs. Happy moments. Unhappy moments.People came. People left. In a flash, the year went by. For each year,...
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Congratulations Sharon!
My 'twin' is finally married!After so many years with her beau, they are finally, officially together.Her story is a happily-ever-after one. Stable. Tolerant. Caring. Loving. Sharing. She found the perfect man and he found the perfect woman. Perfect!She looked so entirely different last Saturday. "Is that really her?" Walking into the dinner hall, holding onto her husband's arms...and all smiles....
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Car accident...again...
Either it's pure bad luck or I'm just a lousy driver. I know what is running through your mind. I am a lousy driver. There I admitted. Hah.I was reversing to park my car. Didn't notice the Harrier at the back. My censor didn't work. Bang! I broke my tail light and the Harrier was scratched. Gosh. Scared the hell out of me. I was so at fault. Got down to check out the damage. The owner literally came...
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Euphoria - Ministry of Sound
This year's Christmas was spent with my close friends again. This time, it was down to the clubs. Actually it was more like for Vannie's hen's night. So, there we were at Euphoria, 13 of us, 6 bottles of Chivas and tonnes of fun.I have never been in to Euphoria. Well, it gave me quite a good experience. The decos are good. The dance floor is spacious enough. The seats are comfortable enough. The patrons...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
If you only knew...
All these years, I have been wondering why,Upon realization, I let out a sigh, It was never a lie,Only, that part of me have been too blind. It wouldn't have been the same, If I had played your game, Now, I have no one else to blame,But myself for being so 'insane'.How I always wish I could only turn back time, To the days when we were in our prime,Where I'd act on your sign,And I'd be yours and you'd...
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Naive
It's a big big world. Things are always not what it seems to be. Even if you've been nicely treated. Even if you've benefitted. You will not know what is lurking under the masks' of people around you. Not until it's too late.Nothing in this life is free. Happiness comes at a cost. Depending on the way you see it. No where is truly safe for your standing. Definitely not out on the streets, not even...
Friday, December 19, 2008
The call
Certain people give a soothing effect. A certain calmness. No matter what is it that they say. Be it some advice or just some mere crap. Certain people just have that aura. Part of their personality. Part of who they are. It feels safe to just listen to what they have to say. I made a call today. It lasted for like 5 minutes. But it does feel good thereafter. That tone.... It felt safe. It managed...
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Work hard, played harder
This is by far the crappiest team I've ever worked with.We stayed back at the client's after working hours. Only, we weren't working. Guess what? We played computer games!All 6 of us. Hogging over the VT's laptop, having fun over "spot the difference". Our 'discussions' and laughters apparently brought the attention of the clients walking past. They gave us curious glances. "Shut that door." There,...
Friday, December 12, 2008
Please wake me up....
The past few days have been dreamlike. Clouded. Misted. Blurred. And my head, well, it was not where it was supposed to be. “Someone please ‘wake’ me up…”Been doing a lot of starring lately. Starring at the wall. Starring at the table. Starring at the ceiling. Starring at the computer screen. Starring at the mug. Starring out of the window. Starring into space. Starring into nothing. Just starring....
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Hypnotized
Unknown track. Unknown composer. Unknown source.Got it off the net, mistaken for something else. And then, I found myself drawn to it, as if being pulled by a gigantic magnet. It's instrumental. It's piano. It's smooth. It's slow. It's soothing. It's romantic. It's waiting for something to happen. It's trying to say something, but the words were unspoken. It's dangerous. It's mysterious. It's hypnotic....
Monday, December 1, 2008
Obssession
This fantasy. This story. This imagination.I have this something in my head. It won't go away. It's been there for awhile now. They say Pisceans are dreamers. They are so true. It's in my head before bed. It's there when I wake up. It's there when I'm on the road. It's there when I work. It's there when I eat. It's there when I'm in the showers. It's there even though I'm in the company of others....
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Twilight
"When you can live forever, what do you live for?" When I stepped into the cinema, I had no idea what this movie is all about. I had no idea who directed it. I had no idea who were the casts. All I knew was that I was dead bored and I just casually picked one movie to kill some time. And this title caught my interest, "Twilight".Based on a novel by Stephenie Meyer, it is about...
Friday, November 28, 2008
It's in!!
It's in! It's in! The letter is in!All my efforts have finally been paid off. The eagerness has come to an end. The long awaited title has reached my doorstep. All it takes was just a few words."Congratulations! Your application to our membership has been successful. You are now permitted to use 'ACCA' after your name."I have all the reason to be proud. My parents were more excited than I am. I am...
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Dark rainy night
Do you know just how scary it is to drive on a night like this? Alone? It's night. It's dark. It's raining heavily. The wipers were on full swing.You can barely see the road in front of you. You are in some far away place. You are not familiar with the area. You are not sure which junction to turn. You are freezing. And you are doing all of it alone. All you can think of is getting back home as soon...
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
"I have something to tell you..."
Ring. Ring."Hello""I have something to tell you...""What? You are dating now?""Nahhh...just listen closely....""What's so secretive?""Just hear me out, will ya?""All right. All right. I'm listening. Shoot.""........here goes.....AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!"My friend just screamed in my ear. In the middle of the night. Yes. Yes. I get the frustration. I get the need to let out. Poor me. There....
34th ACCA graduation
Honestly, to me, it is just another one. Just another graduation. Graduations are supposed to be a prestigous event. You feel proud that you've finally made it. The shimmer of gleam on your loved ones' faces. All the hard work and late nights have all been paid off the moment you step on stage to receive that scroll.I have been to too many graduations. Mine alone, I've received scrolls for like 5...
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Clicking friends
Do you know how hard it is to find them? It's tough enough to even find one, let alone a few. Consider yourself lucky if you have like a few friends that clicks with you. "Aiseh! Friends only maa. What's so difficult? Just hang out at some party and you'd get a few of them instantly." Yea. You'd have tonnes of those. But for friends that truly knows you and are by your side all your life...those are...
Monday, November 3, 2008
Time
"Wishing that I could freeze the moment, and save it from the funny tricks of time..."Time goes so fast when you are having fun. You waited for it all week. You anticipated the excitement when it finally came. You put your whole heart in and played till the very end. Little did you know, the hands of time keep ticking and ticking. You were enjoying too much to notice. And too soon, it ended. You...
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Loving Starbucks
Not Coffee Bean. Not San Fran. Not Dome. Not Gloria Jeans. It is only Starbucks. My favourite coffe haunt. I know it's rather pricey. But, hey, I just simply can't resist the charm. They have this something that got me so drawn to it. The taste maybe? The ambience? That paper cup in my hands? Or maybe cause it's greeeeeen??? ;)I only go for this one thing all the time. Java Chip...
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Never been in love
Already 24 and never been in love. Embarrasing even to admit. People are either feeling sorry, that there was something wrong, or that it's running out of time. "So, are you attached?" No. "Is there anyone that you've laid your eyes on?" No. "Has anyone come forward to you?" No. "C'mon. Don't lie. Lets be frank, shall we? You seem to have alot of friends. Surely there must be someone....."Gosh. You...
Friday, October 17, 2008
Paid to chill
Just which other job pays you to watch movies and play computer games? And then your boss comes in to thank you and treats you for dinner?Yeah.That was what happened to me late last night. My bosses were having this big, very urgent meeting. They needed us around to help out with some adjustments and documentations when they were done. So, we need to hang around to wait for them. Not allowed to leave....
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Time
Time zooms past. It goes so fast that when you finally had the time to take a breath, you'd wonder if what you went through did actually happened. The past (even yesterday) might become a clump of gray clouds in your head. Yesterday would seem like one month ago. A month ago would seem like a year ago. Too many things happen, in too little time.The present would no longer pose any meaning. As it would...
Guilty-ness
If you make people lose something that they can never get it back, no amount of sorry is ever going to be enough.If someone extended their favour to you, upon your request, no amount of thank you is ever going to release you from your indebtness to that person.So what if they happen...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
SKTS Reunion
"Hey bro, good to see you...""Heeyyyy, errr, you are?"" Huh? You are xxx? Oh my gosh! Are you for real? You're really xxx?""Psst, who is that? Do we know him? Is he from Segar as well?""Where's xxx? Did anyone inform her? Why didn't she turn up? I want to see what did she turned into after all these years.""Do you remember me? Take a guess..."Segar-ians reunited. After 12 long...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
The stages of life: What we went through
When we were in elementary school, all we knew was play. Running around. Climbing trees. Skipping classes. Eating junks from the aunty by the road. Playing puppy loves, "Yerrr, she likes you." "You no good, I don't want to friend you already." Kids. We do what kids do. Laughing. Messing around. When we entered high school, we turned our focus on studies. PMR, SPM, STPM. We got active in sports. We...
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
A foolish decision
Being a young adult who is neither matured nor naive (remember 'not a girl, not yet a woman'?), I made a rather hasty decision. This little voice at the back of my head went "Just go for it. It's worth a try." I obeyed. I went for it without even a second thought. It was after I've done it that I realised what a stupid mistake I made. That I should have at least thought of the consequences. I was...
Monday, September 29, 2008
A weekend trip down to JB
Before I even start with anything, a very big thank you to both HK and Pa for driving all of us down. Tiring, I know. So thank you!The trip down has its purpose. To attend Dia's open house. "Wah! All the way there just for one night? You people must be good friends huh?" That's what I got when I told people of my plans for the weekend. Yea. We are close friends. Or maybe we were just merely accompanying...
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
The nicest thing I heard in weeks
"No matter what, you will forever be my friend. You do not need to change. Not in front of me. Not in front of us. You are always free to be yourself . Rest assured."That truly made my day. I was touched. Thank you so much....
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Got a parking ticket!
"Just park by the road laa. Can wan la. Everyone's doing that also what." That's how my friend "convinced" me into getting a parking ticket later on. Hah!It was after dinner. Too early to head home, so we went down town to this cafe for a drink. It's called Wingz. There..those cafes which became usual hangout places for youngsters in the chinese community lately...dimly lighted...sofas...curtains...chinese...
Friday, September 12, 2008
On a night like this
It's 2 am. Guess what? I am still at work. High up on the 47th floor in the middle of the city. The roads below are bare. No people. Very very few vehicles. The people I work with do bore me sometimes. Or I should say, I do not click with them. I seriously have no idea why did I voluntered to stay on. Cause what I do have no relevance to the purpose of staying late tonight. Yea. I should just probably...
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
No one
With what I am today, I felt inferior. Small. Useless. Invinsible. I don't have what it takes to do my job. I don't have what it takes to be a person. I don't have what it takes to be a friend. I don't have what is takes to be a daughter. I don't have what it takes to be anyone. I felt like I was nothing. Someone of no importance at all. It can go on with or without me. Doesn't really make a difference...
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Losing it
Times have certainly change. I've seen numerous taglines which read, "It's not the same anymore". Didn't quite get the real picture of it then. Cause everything was the same to me. Untill I experienced it for myself did I really understood what does it means now. The whole day today had been wet and cold. Rain didn't stop pouring since morning. And it is because of this that I stayed at home the entire...
Childhood memories
These mails have been circulating at work lately. Those "80's babies" kinda of thing. It brought back my childhood days which were gradually being pushed to the back of my head. Not purposely. But as time goes by, it does happen.I reckon all are familiar with these pictures. So no further explanations needed. If you are born in the 80's, then you'd know....
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
The break of every make
This line just pop up. Came out of no where. Kinda true. It has always been a fact that what ever being made will be broken. I would like to find an exception to that but nothing has proved me wrong so far. All the on-goings around me have just strengthen the fact further. I was working late yesterday. I turned around and looked at my fellow colleagues. I turned my attention to the few resignees who...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Sick of people...
Why can't people just leave me alone? Why do they have to come messing around with my life? And what does my life got to do with them anyway? It's MY LIFE! MY CHOICES! MY DECISIONS! When in the world do they have any right to tell me what to do? To tell me how I should lead my life?Just because certain people wants a perfect life doesn't mean I want one to. I am contented with what I have. I am happy...
Thursday, August 7, 2008
A tribute to a good friend
He, stole my blog website and then came screwing me for not posting anything about him on my page. Well, dear Kenny, I shall dedicate one full entry on you now. You can thank me later on.He was sort of invinsible at first. I have never noticed him during my first few months as a newbie. It all started during that trip to Bangkok where he was trying to hit on a friend of mine, in...
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Loving night views
My fascination for night views have never failed to cease. I find bright coloured lights paired with the dark sky is something to be amazed of. It gives a form of pleasure. It's something worth living to see. It's something worth remembering. Each different location gives you a different view. And all of them have been oh-so captivating. =PI just love 'em all!*The Twin Towers from...
Thursday, July 31, 2008
When ducks talk to chickens...
....they end up like this. This is what happens when people with accounting qualifications talk to their IT counterparts. I don't get what you are explaining. You don't understand what I want. So how? So, they shall just continue being ducks and chickens. Now who are the ducks and who are the chicke...
Monday, July 21, 2008
Clouded...
You have been wrong. The heart is not hardened. It’s always been delicate. It will always be. I am still not right. I’m sorry D, I can’t be strong. Certain things are much easier said than done. “Always think on the bright side”. “Choose to live happy” etc etc. They don’t seem to take any effects. I am still clouded. Maybe you are fed up of this. So I suggest you stop reading further. I lay in bed...
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
"Swelling" not subsided
I messaged Lin jie at 3 this morning. Surprisingly, she replied me. She called back today asking if anything was wrong. Yes. Everything seems to be wrong. I didn't know where to start. I didn't know what to tell her. I don't feel all right. I've not been all right ever since Michelle left a week ago. Everything doesn't seem to be going well after that. I needed people to talk to. I needed to see someone....
Monday, July 7, 2008
Out in the open sea
As the night turned still, as the lights dimmed, with only the sounds of the ceiling fan and the music playing from the laptop, I sank into deep thoughts. Wondering why is everything the way it is. Were they all laid out? Can there be anything different?Look at the time. My MSN buddies keep pushing me to bed. I want to sleep it all away too. To lay in some dream where everything seemed to be perfect....
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
"A whole new world"
A week has past. And I longed to jump back on that plane that flew me all the way to Disneyland. Man, I couldn't get my mind off that wagging Pluto. It's just so adorable!The trip was, well, sort of came in a rush. We felt like taking a break. We got tired of local places of interests. Hong Kong seems to be the place that we could afford. So, we set a date and off we went. Mana...
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Michelle...missing you already
I really hate goodbyes. My girl left for London this morning. Not too sure if she could adapt to the environment there. I certainly couldn't. I couldn't accept the fact that she is no longer here. I mean, c'mon...She's been with me for the past 10 years. Close and supportive. Like any other Sunday, I woke up this morning feeling bored. I picked up the phone, thinking of calling...
