Adios 2009!

The year came and went. I'm through with all the countdowns and well wishes bla bla bla. No matter what you do or what you say, 2009 will still be gone and you can't predict what's in store for 2010. The day continues when you wake up tomorrow morning. Life goes on as usual. So, keep all the good memories from the past year and be glad that you lived through it. Learn from past mistakes. Forgive...

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In search for that something....

Nothing seems to interest me any longer. I find it boring to do almost anything. And yet I'm only 25. To certain people, life has just begun. To me, it started to get static. I no longer anticipate to walk the malls or catch the latest movies. I no longer find it exciting to go for trips. I no longer find it happening to hang out at pubs or that new clubbing arena. I no longer find it fun to...

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Un-gentleman-ness

Ungentleman guys put me off. I'm not being fussy. I'm not being demanding. But if a guy doesn't know how to treat a lady properly, he would be a real jerk. He doesnt't escort you to the parking lot at night? He doesn't offer to carry that heavy baggage? He doesn't hold the elevator door? Screw him then. Worse still if he chooses which lady to be nice too. So only the hot, pretty ones deserves the...

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Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all! It's one more week to the end of the year. Do what you got to do. XO...

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Office politics

This is all just so tiring. It's never ending. One after the other. Just when I thought I could end the year with some peace and quiet, something came up again. Ruined what ever plans that I had made. Real sickening. Emotionally unstable n...

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8D,7N Taipei 2009

This is a very delayed posting. I got to wait for Mr Photographer to be done with all the editing before I can get my hands on the pictures. And without them, it's rather hard to imagine on what I got to write. Another yearly overseas trip with my close friends from college. We decided to head to Taipei for the food and for alot of shopping. Little did we know, Taipei...

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The language we all speak

I was at this hawker stall the other night, having dinner. The table next to mine was occupied by an Indian couple. After the meal, they called for the bill. "Boss, kira!" The boss happened to be an old Chinese aunty, about 60 years old. She came, gave the table one look,"Elam blas tiga puruh. Ala duit kecik?" The Indian man paid the amount and the couple left. At times like this, there's a...

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"Balik kampung"

You, moving on a one lane trunk road. Surrounded by hills on both sides. You know it's a sunny day but you can't feel the heat of the sun as trees covered its rays. You'd see clouds and mist hanging over the hills from a distance. As you take in the serene surroudings, a flock of birds flew past to keep you company. The road goes on to be bumpy. You try your best to avoid...

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Down with fever

It's twice this month. Must be due to the weather. Sunny and rain in the same day. In the end, jadilah macam ni. Been sleeping alot. Waking up only for food and meds. Maybe that's the reason on why I can't sleep right now. Had too much of sleep already. But my sleeps were not all that peaceful though. My phone has been ringing all the while. Good timing guys. People who don't usually call suddenly...

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Yet another goodbye...

Friday was Eugene's last day. The joker has finally said his farewells. I can't deny that it was a sad to see another batch mate leaving. After all, we've all been going through this journey together. And now, it's time to move on. Looking back, it was surely one hell of a 3 years. Time passes real darn fast. Yea. I'll surely miss him being around in office. Miss all his crappy emails on...

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Gaya senior

You know when I just got hired as a freshie, I tend to look up to my seniors. They seem to be so 'high-leveled'. They are those that are not boss yet but still you call them superiors. They sometimes act like boss and sometimes they don't. They have a style of their own. They have their own clique. "Oh, that's a second year senior for that xxxx job" and people would automatically go "Wow!". Respect...

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I'm really getting slimmer!

Caught up with 'uncle' last night.The first thing he said when he saw me, "Eh, you are slimmer again..."OMG! This has got to stop. I don't want to turn into a lidi. So many people have been telling me that I'm getting slimmer by the day. No. I'm not on diet. No. I'm not aneroxic.No good. No good. I'm starting my weight gain plan this insta...

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An enchanting dinner with Dato' Sheila Majid

A very enchanting dinner indeed. It was an eye-opener to be able to get up close with Malaysia's Queen of Jazz. It was a charity dinner. At the grand ballroom of Legend Hotel. I had the privilege of being invited by my boss. She's an outstanding performer. She got the crowd going...singing along to all her songs. I felt like I'm from another era, cause other than I know that she's...

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In just a month...

It was really just a month. Exactly a month. Life was moving at its usual pace. Things were the way it was. Self. Family. Friends. Work. Until a month ago. Something new crept up. Something unexpected. Something that sort of changed things for a little bit.I was left with varied emotions. In this month alone, I've felt happy. I've felt glad. I've felt pampered. I've felt taken cared off. I've felt...

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New Moon

Vampire vs warewolf. For a human. How much more interesting can that be?The second sequel to the Twilight saga. Millions of teenage girls going ga-ga over the mysterious Edward Cullen. Even the appearance of the husky Jacob Black caused no threat to his standing.I've read the book half way before heading to the theatres. Honestly, the book's rather boring. Too lengthy. It didn't...

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Social Cocktail Party

The two things that would not change every year : liquor and dance.Due to cost constraints, there was no annual dinner this year. Shucks! It was replaced by a cocktail party. Themed "Remembering MJ'. At the Royal Selangor Club. The crowd was much lesser than expected compared to the ones we had previous years. Less than 50%. Nevertheless, we still partied like mad. As those who...

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White lies

Often, you'd get offended when you found out that you've been lied to. You'd be hurt when it's someone close to you. No matter how many "sorrys" have been said, it's not going to rectify the situation. What damage has been done, was being done. You just can't turn back time. You just can't take back the lies that's been said. Be it on purpose or not. Be it for the better or not. It is still a lie....

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REC goes to Bangkok....

Again!!!We were very excited the first time around, which was 3 years ago. But this time, many were not too keen in going. They had to make it compulsory to make us all go. Nevertheless, we obliged. For one last time. Hah!So, here it is. REC in Bangkok. 19-21 October 2009....

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To the heart's desire?

If only we could ignore what others perceive. If only we could ignore what others have to say. If only we could ignore what the consequences would be. If only we wouldn't need to lie. If only we wouldn't need to cause so much pain. If only we could take back everything that has been said. If only we wouldn't need to be so cruel. If only we wouldn't need to deny. If only we could just follow the voices...

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Just a little

Just a little support...a little understanding...and a little love...is all it takes. Yet, even just a little is just that too much to ask for. Even just a little is not permitted. Just how much can one endure?...

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Random thoughts

The steady breathing came down through the left ear. The chin rested comfortably on the left shoulder. The strong arms found their way around the neck. The heart beat was 'heard' down the spine. The grip was tight, yet it was secure. It was warm. A gaze to the left saw those tender brown eyes gazed back down. Ever so loving. Ever so caring. The grip grew tighter. The tender brown eyes closed. Taking...

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Acknowledged 'princess'

All the while, I memang know I am one. Well taken cared off. Pampered. Somewhat baby-ied. But I didn't think that my case was that extreme. There are a lot others out there with more princessie attitudes than I do.Recently, some one acknowledged the fact that I am indeed one. In a very serious manner. May be it was how I carried myself. Or may be it was the things that I've said. The person seemed...

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I made her cry

I had never cried because of someone else and never has anyone else cried because of me. Yesterday was the first time ever that someone shed a tear because of what I did.I was both mad and disappointed at what she said to me. The week had been crazy and the least I expected was this coming from her. "So, you gave her a piece of your mind?" "No. I gave her the cold shoulder the entire day." "Wow...that's...

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Don't you ever walk away again...

I watched you slowly disappeared out of sight, leaving nothing behind but me...Don't you ever walk away again...

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Holding back

As I sat there in the dark, I was holding back. I have been holding back the sorrowness that's been lingering all throughout the day. I have been holding back the anger that was laid upon. I have been holding back the desire to apologise so deeply. I have been holding back the urge to say "thank you" a million times. I have been holding back the words that I've been so longing to utter. I have been...

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An early morning "dim sum"

It's been quite some time since I did something crazy. This person didn't fail to remind me that I am the entire time throughout it. It was not really that crazy all right? It was fun.After a whole night out, I slept for 2 hours before waking someone else up at 6 am to have "dim sum" with me. I was hungry okay? And I know you're the one person who would agree to go with me. And you did. Even when...

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I got thinner...yet again

I think it's no longer the dress. Or the blouse. Or the pants. Cause that statement came from quite a number of people who bumped into me lately. "Oh my! You looked thinner." "I did?" And no. I was not flattered. Cause if this continues, I'm going to look like a bamboo. Or maybe a lidi. Why does everyone keep saying that I'm thinner? Did I really lost so much weight? Did I? Did I?All right. Time to...

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"Sir, you gostan first"

Apa benda itu gostan? It's not Malay. It's not Tamil. And it's definitely not English.But we did fully understood the fella. We reversed our vehicle to allow the on coming one to move into the parking space. And then only we frowned and asked ourselves, "Gostan? Why not reverse? Or undur? Or simply pergi belakang?"That's being Malaysian. We come out with weird languages and we still get what the other...

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Starbucks delivery...just for me!

The other night, I was mad. Certain deliverables could not be submitted on time. I picked up the phone and spoke in kind of a harsh tone to the person on the other end, demanding an explaination. The other person was in a shock. Stressed up SIC unleashing it all out on me. I was not really at fault. There was nothing I could do to help it. I already did my part. I already did my very best to complete...

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No good. No good.

Tired over work. Not been hanging out. Missing a few certain people. Going to lose a few certain people. No chats. Nobody to sayang. No time for my own. Crap. This is so not good....

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"Back" to school

Wide projected screens. Wooden tables. Microphones. Loose hand-outs. Coloured pens. Doodles. Dozing offs. Whispers. Text-ings. Taking down notes. Passing around attendance lists. Q&A sessions. Sneaking out to the washroom. Empty corridors. A 2-day training made me felt like I was back in the lecture hall. In the last row, head resting on one hand. The other hand twisting the pen. Looking out the...

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Farewell Big D...

Hmmm, I think Big D would no longer be in KL at this hour. And one week later, he would no longer be in Malaysia. Yet another departure. To a land with more opportunities. Well, I do hope you find your opportunities there. Make sure you do.So, sad to say, I will be missing Big D. I will miss all the free rides and the free Starbucks. Yes, of course the company as well. You have been great. Whenever...

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Sun set

I had the most remarkable view of the sun setting yesterday evening. No. I don't have to hike up hill. Neither do I have to be at some beach to wait for it. All I need to do is stand by the window, and there, at eye level, I get to see the bright, round, orange sun disappeared slowly amongst the mountains. And the sky. The sky was a perfect blend of pink, orange and yellow colours. Surrounded by dark...

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Every little thing counts

I need a hug...I need reassurance that everything is fine...I need to know that I am not screwing things up...I need to know that I am not a failure...I need to know that I didn't disappointed people...I need to know if I made the right judgement...I need to know if it's all worth it....I seriously need a hug...Please don't make it worst than it already is, all rig...

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I'm not pyschotic!

A little clear up on me being a pyschotic senior. As what the whole world knows through my Facebook, I was making my junior work till 4 in the morning. The truth is, yes, the junior was with me at that hour, but, we were not working. And it wasn't me either who posted that line up on my profile. Man, was I being so misunderstood!I was actually at home, in fact. This junior came ringing my doorbell...

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Sayang sayang

C'mon! Surely everyone wants to be disayang. It can come in many forms. But no matter what form it is, it never fails to tickle the heart. It never fails to bring out some warmth. It never fails to make you feel special.So keep the love going on out there and sayang back those that sayang you. It's a pretty good feeling. It'll make your d...

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The biggest joke ever

This girl called me at late last night, in a very anxious tone."Ehhh...how?? My purse is with A.""Huh? Why is your purse with her?""I told her to keep it while at the movies just now. I forgot to take it back.""HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAA......."'I got no IC and no licence now. How?""AHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAA......."I couldn't stop laughing since. I'm mean. I'm real mean. I was still laughing when...

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My team

As what I told one of them, I am going to miss this year's team. Even before the job is over, I know I will definitely miss them. Miss them for all the fun we had. Miss them for all the outings. For all the discussions. For all the arguments. For all the late nights. For all the crappiness. For all the MSNs and Facebooks. For all the pictures. We started out as strangers 2 months back. But now, we...

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I don't like this...

I don't like people to leave...I don't like to miss them...I don't like to know that it won't be the same again...I don't like to look back and wished that they are still here...I don't like to look at pictures and bring up memories...I don't like to miss the laughters and the time spent together...I don't like the answer to "Why did you have to go?"...I don't like to think about how are they doing...I...

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Working weekends

If you'd be in my line long enough, your mind would keep asking if working on weekends is appropriate.If you don't work, you'll never meet that ridiculous deadline and not only your boss would come after you, your clients would be literally yelling at you everyday.But if you do work on weekends, you'd wonder if it's worth to sacrifice your time and your loved ones over something which might not be...

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One pampered day

It's nice to be pampered for one day. Yea, just one day.I was slouched on the arm chair. Listening to my favourite songs. With my legs curled up. A cup of hot white coffee by the side. People talking all around the room. A junior beside me, fixing something that went wrong on my screen. Another junior got me breakfast. Another one carried my stacks of files down to the car. Another one 'threw' me...

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Purposes

Today, I wonder...about purposes.Purpose. Purpose. Purpose. Does everything being done serves any purpose? Do you have a purpose? Does one actually knows their purposes? Does one understands their purposes? Does one meets their purposes? Are their purposes worth it? Has one diverted from their purposes? Just what the hell are my purpos...

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Kids at work

And what do you get? Chaos!That's my current team. Grown up 'kids' at work. Not a day passes without teasings and laughters. You should take a look at the meeting room that we are in. The table can hardly be seen, covered with laptops, pencil cases, loose papers, cables, charges, bottles. The floor is covered with our bags, trash, files, stacks of papers and boxes. Have you seen kids fight for space?...

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The thing about personality

I like to watch people who has this 'in' thing. You know, people with a certain aura. Those that make your head turn when they walk past. They don't have to be very good-looking. It's just this something about them that catches your attention. And no matter how long you watch them, it doesn't bore you. That aura never fades. It's that something that makes them who they are. Like the way they talk....

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Be jovial

A close friend woke me up early one morning to talk crap. I have a few crappy friends. As I mentioned, they like to either call real early in the moring or real late at night. Oh wait. That would be me. Anyway, at the end of the conversation, he reminded me one thing. "It would be a lovely day! Be happy all right? Be happy each day!" It's weird that the statement came from someone like him. Since...

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Si Adik comel

Ain't she adorab...

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"fan shu fu chuk tan"

In this context, it's not a dessert. When my friends get mad, they come up with all kinds of funny funny phrases. This, is a swear word. Used in conversations about your boss, or about your colleagues or about that nasty stranger in the bus. As we are all polite people, we shall unleash our angers in a more polite way, shall we?Now you've learnt something new today. Use it wise...

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At the end of today...

I felt...1) ...that I failed as a leader2) ...that I looked awful in my favourite top3) ...that I looked horrible with panda eyes4) ...disgusted with myself5) ...that I croaked when I talk6) ...that I sucked at what I am doing7) ...that people disliked me8) ...that I am not that good after allToday is one of those days, aga...

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I enjoy...

......Starbucks-ing with my mates....on a humid Saturday evening....amidst the crowd....around a small table...fiddling with straws and serviettes...checking out young, hot people...and being checked out at the same time....(we are young and hot too okayy..)I like our version of gejala lepak. The high-classed w...

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"llp" left

My very first senior, left, yesterday, after serving the firm for 4 years. I am going to miss arguing with her. She handed me my first assignment. She guided me through all these years. She solved what ever work that I couldn't resolved. She's dedicated. In her eyes, I'm always that playful junior that sometimes doesn't listen to her orders. Yes. There were times when I don't agree with her. There...

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Pissed off!

Arghhhh!!!!This is bad. Was really mad at a couple of people. And for that, I think I've blew it. It's not the way that it should be done. It's not my fault. It's not your fault. Then who's fault is it? No matter who's fault is it, you want me to deal with it. Crap. Sorry hun, I've got no time for your games. And I don't want to be in your games. I've got too much to deal with already.Going back to...

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Surprised sister

As I post this entry, I was seated in front of the PC in a pair of jeans and a 'spaghetti' top. My little sis walked in through the front door and looked at me."Jie, did you just got back or are you about to go out?"I got stunned a little. Then I turned to her and replied, "Just got back...""Uh, so early? Surprising..."Even my little sis doesn't believe that I could be a goodie-two-shoes. I am a goodie-good...

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An intimate dinner with the Dutchess

She's back! Yes. The Dutchess is back. My bestie from the olden days. Still the same as always. A little get together got chaotic. Every sentence garnered a hearty laugh. So many memories were brought up. We laughed on all the silly silly things back then. The locked up with cute kittens. The scoldings during assemblys. The getah and the batu serembans. The puppy loves. The pink...

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Lucky

The more I mingle with society, the more I hear of all the miserable stories, the more I realised that life has been treating me okay so far. I mean it's not very good, I'm no heiress with no worries, but it's not that bad either. And I am glad for all the blessings that I have been bestowed upon. What more can I ask for?I got to put an end to all my whinings and complaints and to start to be thankful...

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The King of Pop

No one bothered much about him after his fame died down. It is only when he's dead that he got one whole day dedicated to him. From CNN to radio stations to MTV to Facebook to Twitter to YouTube to Google. Reports of his death was plastered all over the news. Every one of his songs from each of his albums have been playing all over. You see him, you hear him in all forms of media...

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Managing people

Humans are the most complicated creatures ever alive. If you are able to get few different bunch of people in order and keep all of them happy, while maintaining your cool all the while, I will definitely salute you. Hats o...

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Age matters

To some, age is just a number. But to some others, age is more like a benchmark. I have to get out of school at 17. I have to get a driver's license at 18. I have to get out of uni at 24. I have to get a job at 25. I have to own a house of my own at 27. I have to be married at 28. I have to reach manegerial level at 30. I have to have babies at 30. I have to save RM 500,000 at 40. I have to retire...

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Favouritism

I am just not that good enough. I am never going to be that good enough. No matter what I do. Just tell me what does it takes to satisfy all you people? Just tell me what do I got to do...

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Being emo

My trusty senior is pulling out from the job due to personal reasons. My manager demands that I show up at his place this instant just to do this one printing. My this other senior needs to be spoon fed on all the petty matters. Juniors are looking at me on the hiccups that they can't solve. More juniors turning up to me on all unrelated matters. I got two dinners to organise. I went back to office...

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