Christmas : Part II

Merry Christmas!

This year's eve was spent with my irreplaceable 'family'...as expected. Coz they are the ones dat will come up with numerous activities to celebrate wat ever is there to celebrate. We were at pyramid's redbox. Let's see, all nine of us cramped into one small little room. Obviously all other rooms were fully booked. There wasnt really enuf space to sit, let alone stand. But still, we kept on singing. Well, actually it was them who kept on singing. I din really chose any songs this round. They seemed to be very into their own choices, I din wanna break the mood. As long as they are happy, I'm cool. The only irritating thing was dat the waiter kept knocking in. Interupting a few of the songs. Ish! Juz buzz off next time. And leave us alone.

We sang thru past midnite. So, dat means, we missed the countdown. We missed the screamings. We missed the fireworks. And we certainly missed the sprays and foams. Heehehe! But we exchanged hugs in our small cosy room. With all our xmas hats. Some with lights blinking even. Cool. And with my ah lui back from far. Knew u wud definitely show up la. So it was not dat surprising. It will be surprising if u DUN show up.

All in all, it ended too soon I wud say. Well, as usual, happy times fly past. By the time we stepped out onto the streets, sprays were every wer. Kenal, tak kenal, also spray dulu la. We were ducking here and there. Hiding behind the guys. Dat's why tak kena so much. Lolz! But my pity goes to the expensive cars by the streets. Those jockey-ed parked ones. Faham-faham la. Serious car wash needed. :p

While heading towards my car, I hung on to pa's arms. Pa and his crazy antics. It felt good actually. In that few minutes or so, I got a sense of protection. Like I'm pa's little girl. No worries about wat's lurking in the dark. Pa's around. But the feeling of hanging on to a friend and hanging on to someone truly yours is entirely different. A friend is still a friend. No matter how long u hang on to. I still went home alone. It didnt change dat one fact for once. I guess I will only get to experience true care and protection until I find my 'one'. As I said, my knight in shining armour. I can keep on fantasizing for the moment. Dun worry pa, I wont be fantasizing about u la. And thanx for the escort.

Anyway, I din really head home after dat. My foot on the accelerator actually took me for a spin down town. I took the other longer route home. I was in no mood to go home. So I went to check out the decorations in town. Then as loads of thoughts filled my head, I stopped by the highway. I knew I was mad. Me. Alone. In a car. Past midnite. On the highway. But I didnt care. I sat with my eyes closed for like 15 mins. To clear the nite's memories from my head. I sometimes fear dat I wont be able to hang out with u all. Either dat I'd be busy, or dat guys wont call, or dat I'll be left out, or dat I simply dun wanna head up. So, I'd try not to think of u guys too often. To keep my options open and to occupy myself with some other things. Partly goes to the fear of losing wat I actually have rite now. I hate the idea of treasuring somethings and then to have them broken all in one shot. I cant take dat. No.

So I took a longer time to reach home. Apologies to my folks for having to worry a few more minutes and for having to wait up for me. Even then, I cant sleep. Dat explains this entry.


Dear Santa,
Obviously u didnt hear me this year...