Rudeness

I look down on people with no basic courtesy. Ill-mannered. Inconsiderate. Irresponsible. Ignorant And immature.

Sounds harsh but these are people that really get onto my nerves. I'm fine if they are on an acceptable level but what's with all the unreturned calls? Unreplied messages? Unconfirmed decisions? Broken promises? Uninformed arrivals and departures? etc etc. Have some respect for yourself and for others.You don't live in this world alone. Have some thought for others for once.

Shouldn't everyone be acting their age now?

Enough said.

{ Continue Reading... }

Ignorance is bliss?

I'm a blur case. Ppl who know me would tell u this. Blur in the sense that I sometimes won't be able to get what others are saying. Or I get lost in certain conversations. You need to repeat things at times in order to get my full attention. "Huh?" happens to be another one of my common words. Oblivious of my surroundings. Yea. I didn't think that it would matter much all along. Coz it's my nature. Born with it. Under the Pisces sign. And as far as I've read, Pisceans are dreamers. I don't know about the rest, but it holds true for me. So, as you would have guessed, my mind will go wondering most of the time. If not all of the time. And where does my mind usually fly to? Don't ask.

Until recently, the blurness is not a good thing after all. I mean I didn't think that it was good a thing. I just live with it. Being blur, or rather, being ignorant, won't take u far in life. I didn't want to know things around me. I didn't want to see. I didn't want to hear. I didn't want to care. I didn't want to learn. I was just being plain lazy. Or maybe, it's not my nature at all to be curious. I live by everyday knowing that someone will be there to, somehow, take care of everything. And someone really did. So, I continued to live in my dreamy world. Only to be awaken at certain times. When it is necessary to do so. Yea, call me pampered. Call me spoilt. I've heard that a lot. Got teased a lot. Lolz. But I was not once bothered by them. I laughed them off. No hard feelings. No offense taken.

Reality finally slapped. It dawned upon me after so many years that a someone can't alwiz be there to take care of everything. To be my shield. To be my guardian angel. It is time to take things back into my own hands. For a change. Yes, you are right. Fui, it is time to wake up. Time to grow up. Time to be a little mature and take responsibility for the stuffs that you do. You can't pull off being confident and convincing in the world if you continue your ways. You would be laughed at. Where would u be if you knew nothing about the world? Nothing about ur culture? Nothing about ur life? You'll end up being a nobody. Coming to think of it, I am coming close to being a nobody. I am of no use for most situations. I'm just there for the sake of......being there.

I am trying. It is not easy. I can't escape from being a Piscean, can't I?
Be with me.

{ Continue Reading... }

February the 14th

If you don't have a loved one, you would be with your pals. If you don't have a loved one and not with your pals, you would be with your family. But what if you don't have a loved one, not with your pals and not with your family?

You would just wish that the clock ticks faster today. Real fast. So that you won't have to bear the sight of lovely bouquets of roses in the office nor the "Are you going any where tonight?" coming from almost everybody. The thing is, you don't want to feel sorry for yourself. Man, the day is a long one.

The mind wasn't really on the spreadsheet in the laptop. Nor was it on the files on the table. Nor was it 'listening' to what the client was trying to explain. The mind lingered back to the days when you showed me so much attention. When you made me a 'star'. You remembered everything I said. You knew all my likings. The gifts you gave. The lengthy emails we exchanged. The late night calls. The jokes you made. The arms around me. The genuine cares and concerns you showed. The touchy things you did. The surprise rose. The cute messages. The sweetness I felt everytime you looked my way. The nervousness in you everytime I glanced your way.

But we never did started anything. I never did started anything.

The day went quietly. Fate decides now. Wish me luck!

Happy Valentines Day!

{ Continue Reading... }

Lost...and found!

Remember the 'heart' u guys gave me for my 21st? Well, I wore it to work yesterday. Wanted 'u ppl' to teman me ma. Or maybe because it matched my attire. Hehe. The thing is, I was freshening up in the washroom, and thru the mirror, I realised dat my neck was bare. Shit! I panicked. The first thing dat crossed my mind was, " Gosh, u guys are so gonna kill me!" Even I won't be able to forgive myself. How cud I possibly lose 'my precious' ?

I was hoping dat I had not dropped it some wer on the streets. My memory flashed back to all the places I went. To all the routes I'd taken to get to office. I prayed dat I might have dropped it at home. Or maybe in the car. Places dat I knew I wud have the chance of retrieving it back. But please not out on the open roads. Wer there's a possibility of it being run over by a vehicle or picked up by some passer-by. My heart was beating fast, man!

I searched the washroom. No sign of it. Searched the corridor. No sign of it. Searched the elevator. Still no sign of it. I am so doomed. Searched the reception area. No sign of it. Searched my table. AH-HAH! There it was. Laying on the floor next to my bag. PHEW! Lucky me. Luckily it was nearby. Not out in the open some wer. I guess the buckle had loosened up. U noe. Early morning rush. Din really check to see if it was fastened properly. But no next time. Definitely. That's a promise!

I spent the rest of the day checking to see if it was still hanging from my neck. :p But u cant ask me to not put in on either. It looks good on me. Or rather, I look good with it. *wink*

{ Continue Reading... }

From that school on the hill top

You inspire me.
You lift me up when I am down.
You give me strength to carry on.
You bring out the best in me.

Juz a little something that I would like you all to know. When times get real hard and tough, juz the memories of the smiles on your faces, the sweetness in you all, the wisdom words, a casual 'hi', or juz simply a mere presence, will somehow or rather take all the blues away.

I was browsing friendster the other day. I took a peek at your lives. I can't say how proud I am of all of you. Look at how we've grown, man! From naughty kids to smart, young adults. Going places, experiencing the world, getting on with lives and doing things that none of us would have thought of doing back then. Even though I'm no longer part of them, I am still proud to call you all friends. It is good to see that you all are happy. My childhood mates. No other.

I can see you all make it big in the years to come. Something I know for a fact. Don't prove me wrong, alrite? I will make it big too....someday. ;p

Miss you all. You guys...rock.

{ Continue Reading... }

Conversation

Late evening.

Nash: " U dun look quite alright lately."
Kara: " Huh?"
Nash: " U seem out of this world."
Kara: "Wat?"
Nash: " Is something bothering u?"
Kara: " I guess." (shrugs)
Nash: " Do u wanna talk about it?"
Kara: " No."
Nash: " I might able to extend some help"
Kara: ......... (No. U wont be able to. Besides, ur not the best person for me to spill.)
Nash: " Wat is the problem?"
Kara: " Life."
Nash: " Is work part of it?"
Kara: ....... (Wat do u think?)
Nash: " Does it have to do with working ALL the time?"
Kara: ......... (Need I say more?)

5 minutes later.

Nash: " Is it your family?"
Kara: "No."
Nash: " Then it's okie la."
Kara: ..... (Swt. I can only feel bad on family matters, izzit? )
Nash: " Dun think so much, alright?"

Kara: ....... (Dun think so much? How can I not think so much when my life is gradually slipping away becoz of ppl like u and the rest? Ppl with no life. At all. Worst is, I'm spending less time with my family and frens. Two bunch of ppl dat, at least, helped me keep my sanity! I cant let out to anyone. I cant see any others except for the team. No one to soothe my miseries. No one to tell me I'd be fine. Argh!! And u expect me to be me? U can go to hell with dat. I dun feel like hanging around u guys any more. But like I have a choice not to. So u better keep ur distance and take all ur influences far off as well. I'm not into all these. I need my life back.)

10 minutes later.

Nash: " Nitez. See you tmr. So, u'd be driving?"
Kara: *Nods*

{ Continue Reading... }